many of the lies
i've been telling to myself
keep bugging my inabilities
things I could not do,
things I must not do
and bad things I should do~
it incapacitates music
until it no longer helps
staining my favorite songs
until its lyrics no longer inspire
it left me nothing but a long sleep
my left means of escape~
hoping that the longer my mind rests
the longer these noises quiet
then maybe~ the longer i will live
but then, in between me and my loud battle~ i still long for that silence
silence,
that reminds me of hope
serene quietness that
reminds me of a 'braver me'
silence that will remind me to fight~
and to hope for
life~
Ps. word given by @gadisakuu 💗
