Stonehearts 10: Tourmaline

Three

The kiss was mind blowing. I don't know if it's the alcohol making me lose all my inhibitions or it's because he was a damn good kisser.

I fisted his shirt on my hands, furrowing my eyebrows, as I dive deeper into the movement our lips are making. I heard him letting out a groan before he swiped his tongue on my lips, making me agape. He wasted no seconds; he immediately plunged his tongue and nudge mine in a sweet dance.

He tastes bitter, he tastes sweet, he tastes. . . absofuckinglutely delicious.

He gave my bottom lip a hard nip before he put an end to our kiss. We were both panting, making visible puffs in the cold morning air of Baguio.

". . .that mouth." was all I heard him say. Huling bahagi ng isang pangungusap na hindi ko buong narinig.

"S-sino ka? Bakit mo ako hinalikan?"

Ngumiti siya nang nakakaloko. Kahit lasing na ako at nahihilo, malinaw na malinaw pa rin para sa'kin ang kagwapuhan niyang taglay.

"I think the proper question would be, how comfortable are you in my arms?"

Saka ako napatingin at nakakapit nga ako sa matitikas niyang braso. Dali-dali akong napabitaw at napaatras para gumawa ng agwat sa pagitan namin. But because my system was invaded by alcohol, I lost my balance, making me fall almost to the ground.

Almost being the key word because I was again crushed to his body. God, I want to take my time roaming my hands over this perfectly sculpted body.

"Where are you going?" he bellowed.

I looked at him, really looked at him. Maybe, it's best to leave all my remaining reservations. I need someone to be with. Wala si Arcie, wala si Ate, wala si mommy, at wala na akong Evan. . . I have no one here.

I'm living in hell alone.

Kailangan ko ng dadamay sa'kin sa lahat ng nararamdaman kong sakit.

Again, I don't know if it's the alcohol or my breaking heart because the water works starting to spill all over the place.

"Woah. . . w-why are you crying?" his thumb quickly brushed my tears away while his other hand remained at the small of my back.

Para akong tangang umiiyak sa harapan ng taong hindi ko kilala. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngayon lang ako ulit naiyak, siguro sobrang lasing ko? Ito na ang pinakalasing moment ko sa buhay ko?

"H-hey, if I went too far. I'm sorry." He nervously continued.

My lips were trembling, but I managed to talk. "P-pakasalan na n-niya ako. P-papakasal na k-kami."

I felt him stilling, his grip on me tightening. "Ikakasal ka na?"

"Dap-pat. Ikakasal d-dapat. K-kaso may nabuntis siyang iba. Pinakamasama roon, hi-ndi niya dineny. Putang ina, h-hindi niya tinanggi na sa kanya 'yong bata."

He must've felt sorry for me. Wala naman siguro ang hindi maawa sa'kin?

Saka niya ako inakap ng mahigpit. Naramdaman ko rin ang paghalik niya sa tuktok ng ulo ko kaya mas lalo akong naiyak. It's been too long since someone held me like this, since someone was there to keep me from breaking apart.

Alam kong choice ko ang lumayo, but I have my reasons. Siguro hindi namang masamang makaramdam ng ginhawa kahit saglit lang. Hindi naman masamang makaramdam ako ng kaonting espasyo ng paghinga mula sa lahat-lahat ng ka-bullshit-an na nangyari at nangyayari sa buhay ko.

"Do you want some place to go?" he suddenly asked.

"Huh?"

"May gusto ka bang puntahan, para makalimutan mo ang lahat. Kahit ngayon lang."

Natigil ako sa pag-iyak. I got lost in his eyes. It's still taunting me, burrowing deep into my soul, as if he can see everything I'm hiding. Before I knew, my heart blurted out an answer.

"Take me with you."

Mukhang gulat naman siya sa sinabi ko. Kahit ako gulat din, pero hindi ko na babawiin.

A gorgeous grin surfaced on his lips, "Damn, I've waited for this for too long."

I got confused but chose not to react. Saka niya ako hinala papunta sa isang puting sasakyan. Hindi ko na alam ang sunod na nangyari basta nagpadala na lang ako sa agos na siya ang kumukumpas.

We drove around the city. Madilim, malamig, pero hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ako nakaramdam ng lungkot. Marami siyang sinasabi, pero lahat 'yon wala akong naintindihan.

Maliban sa parang lutang na ang pakiramdam ko, wala na akong ibang maatupag intindihin kundi ang amoy niya, ang boses niya, mga mata niya, labi niya, ang buong siya. His presence devoured me whole and I'm wanton to that feeling.

". . . Arcie kasi . . ."

Arcie? Bakit si Arcie?

Nakita ko siyang tumatawa, napansin niya siguro ang itsura ng mukha ko nang nabanggit niya ang pangalan ng best friend ko. He started talking again pero walang tunog, wala akong marinig na iba. Para akong nanonood ng T.V. na naka-mute.

". . . gulat ako kanina nang sinabi mong ikakasal ka na . . ."

Hindi ko na napigilan, bigla ko siyang hinablot para mahalikan. I felt how we swerved on the road before he was able to park us into safety.

"A-aly –" he knows my name? I can't remember telling him my name.

But I was too drunk to care. I again muffled his words with my mouth which he willingly let me.

I removed my seatbelt and shuffled to my seat until I was straddling him. I saw the shock in his eyes, but it was immediately replaced with heat and desire.

His hands moved from my waist to my ass, giving it a hard squeeze. I moaned and again crashed my lips to his. Parang adik na adik na ako sa kanya.

I started to move my hips when I felt his cock wanting to break free from his pants. He let out a curse as I continue to dry hump him.

"Hmmm. . ." I mewled, imaging how thick and long he is.

"F-fuck!" he groaned, gripping me again by the waist, so he could stop my movements. "If you want this, sa bahay tayo, not going to spend our first night together inside my stupid car."

I don't know why I found that sweet. I smiled at him, giving him a soft bite on his lip, like the one he gave me a little earlier.

"Ano? Do you still want this?" he probed.

He reached for my hair and clipped it behind my ears. His eyes searched mine, and I don't know what he found because suddenly it went soft . . and warm.

For the first time ever since our encounter, my heart made a strange thump. It's something I never felt before.

I was bathing in his scent, in his presence, or maybe it was the alcohol. Because the next words that came out from my mouth is something I didn't think through.

"Will you marry me, stranger?"