All you need Is love but sometimes love alone isn't enough

Chapter 3

It's friday today and I'm honestly glad that it's over. Today it's the 17th of July and honestly I got a few memories from facebook to look back on and it was me and me ex bestfriend (usher) to be honest at times I do kinda miss him and a lot but I learned how to live without him or not being able to be close with him anymore. He ruined a good thing by wanting us to be in a relationship and he knew how I felt about that.

^^^Flashback^^^

"I want us to be more than just friends and you know that" I was shocked about the request and sat up straight to answer

"We are more than just friends , we are bestfriend Usher" I know that was a stupid come back but i had to say something and didn't want his feelings getting hurt

"I want you as my girlfriend" he half shouted and I just kept quiet for a moment "you know how much I love you, I love you so so much" yes I knew how he felt but no I didn't love him back like that. Ever loved someone over to see them practically related to you , I know it doesn't make sense but I saw him as a brother someone I could tell him everything ,crushes, boyfriends everything thereafter not my boyfriend

"I love you more but I can't date you , I just can't" I said with a shakey voice with tears threatening to fall but I had to be strong "we good the way we are , we practically act like we dating isn't that enough" yes we behaved like we were dating or related but never kissed or something and most of his girlfriends got jealous about the friendship but I knew I came first

"It's either we dating or we can't be friends anymore" he faced me and you could see the seriousness in that and also something I never saw before , I still can't pin point what it was exactly

"You can't seriously make me choose you won't" I wasn't angry or sad but rather disappointed in him. How could he?

"This is so simple , are going to be my girlfriend?"

"No" I was sure I knew what I was doing or saying and I never even regretted that there after. But little did i know that he was serious about the friendship ending

"Okay then , you and i are practically over. I don't want anything to do with you" he said while looking straight in my eyes "lock the door on your way out" he walked away and I knew he was going to distress and worst part is that we were at his place , I could think , I couldn't breathe, I was suffocating. It felt like I was losing a part of me , I couldn't explain how I was feeling and the door got Banged and just cried , I honestly cried for a friend , a brother , a bestie and someone who understood a part of me ,it was really over.

I took a cab to my crib with tears streaming right down my face , I think people thought I was crazy but yeah I couldn't hold the pain , I cried to ease the pain and mostly to forget. I got home and no one was there yet and went straight to my bed and ended up dozzing off. How could things just change in a few minute, from you a part of me , the best thing to I don't want anything to do with you ? Just like that.

Plays Kem_why won't you stay

^^end of flashback^^

It's definitely going to be a long day today and I'm not even really looking forward to that but what can I say is let me just go to school.