Overthinking

II

Pain

I hate myself for being easily attached,
I hate myself for giving to much love,
I hate myself for all this time I always Pretend,
Pretending that I won't lose in the end.

Too much pain,
Is all I always Gain,
I can't believe that after all the love I give,
Pain is always I receive.

I wonder if it makes them happy,
Those pain that they always give to me.
Maybe I deserve it all,
To receive pain from different people.

I hope I can find a perfect one,
For I am getting tired, yes I am.
I gave love and all,
I don't want to receive pain anymore.