Sarkaar

ch 1

Savitri pov

Is pyaar k libaas m khud ko laapet bethi hu mai toh pee ko mann se hi aapna maan kr bethi hu khud ko niharu iss darpan m mand mand muskara deti hu apne sindoor pr garur kr bethi hu khud ko dekhu pee kisi nazar m pyaar se itna hi khawab saja kr bethi hu pyaar ke lahu m apne gaal ko ranga bethi hu unki najar mere pr padd jaye isliye apna Sarr jhuka bethi hu merre in payal se mere payaar ki dhun sun le pee yeh hi aas lagaye bethi hu aae darpan Tu aaj kahega ki mai sbse sunadar hu vo bhi aaj m maan bethi hu..... Mai bas bethi hu bethi hu iss intezaar mai hu apne pee ke pyaar m......

I am sitting wrapped in clothes of love that I have accepted him whole heartedly I shyly see myself in the mirror getting happy Mischievously seeing my Vermillion I am in utter pride , my eyes only have a dream to see myself in my beloved eyes with pure love and bliss I sit with my cheeks painted in blood of love
His eyes will look for me have bowed my head with sound of my anklets my beloved could hear the music of my love I sit here with this hope today if mirror you will say I m the most beautiful woman I will belive you...... I just sit here waiting and waiting cause I m just in my beloved love

What are you staring at yourself stupid I m calling you for so long I want my files and leave for work find my blue file right now as he harshly pull me up from my elbow breaking my trance and bringing me back to harsh reality.
Ji I reply him and hurriedly moves out of there. I feel sad that he never notice my efforts and love.

I take out his blue file from the cabinet and gives it to him not daring to anger him more. He slowly hold the file and moves toward me as I move back scared of him.

He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards himself I collide in his chest feeling his hard muscular self I feel more terrified of him .

His another hand makes his way in my naked part of my waist making me shy

Suddenly he grab my jaw and squeezed it badly

He warns me kaam pe dhayan diya kr jada hi ho ra hai tera aaj kal mai dekh ra hu maa bhi tere liye bol rahi thi aage se esi choti galtiyaan hui na.....and he left from there.

I sometimes feel so disheartened that my physical pain just numbs in front of my emotions pain.

I adjust my clothes and my look and move out of our shared room for the daily chores.

As I move to the kitchen I hear my mother in law dissatisfied with me

Aaj bhi vo kuch bina khaye piye gya hai kulakshini tujhe hmare hi ghar ka bhoj bnaa tha hume chaar saal hi gye hai shadi k aaj tk pota toh chodo poti tk ni de saki tuj jesi banjaran banjar zameen ko doh gye hum thakur k yaha tere maa baap

I try to ignore her words and go inside the kitchen to make tea and prepare nashta for every one.

Sometimes I feel like I am the wrong one who did all the bad things that is reason everyone in my family is not happy with me.

I was not meant for my husband he deserves a better and classy woman like didi gyatri unke toh naam mai hu gyaan Or sampurnta hai.

I don't even know how to write my name I can't even match to near him but here I am married to him I feel so out of the place.

Our family have only three members maji woh Or mai lekin mai in doo ka bhi khayal thik se nahi rakh sakti...

As I serve tea and nashta to my mother in law and him she gives me death glares and while he quietly eat his meal.

As they get done with there breakfast and moves out of the dining area I clean the whole place with help of radha my helper.

She and I complete our daily chores as the time passes to evening  
  

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