K.A.R.D Bmin / Somin × Bm

First.

Somin P.O.V

I walked and walked and walked and I didn't know where I was even going

I just knew that I needed to fix this

"SOMIN where are you taking me. We have to go and practice"

I didn't care
And I didn't look back at him I kept on walking.

"These were your words. So where are you taking me?"

I stopped

"I wanted to tell you something"

I turned around and looked him in his red swollen eyes

"I've been thinking and you were right. I can't say that I don't love you and I can't promise you that I will not worry about you and think about you and stay awake till 5 am and then go to sleep crying cause I... love you. I do. I love you. I wanted to say these words a long time ago and I finally said them. Matthew. Kim Woojin. I love you. And I'm sorry for what I said. I want to hear your voice I want to see you and hug you and everything a couple do even if we know that we would maybe disband even before we debut I'm willing to risk that. To be with you. So I'm asking you will you be my boyfriend"

I looked him in his eyes and the whole time I could see that he wanted to cry but he held it in

"Somin"

"Yes?"

"You don't know how long I have been waiting to hear those words from you"

"Me t-"

Before I could finish he kissed me

He just kissed me

Am I dreaming?

This has to b-

"I'm sorry I just couldn't handle your cuteness and now please don't be awkward"

"Why would I be awkward?"

"Cause I can't kiss it was my... first"

Wait.

"It was my first kiss too"

We just stared in each others eyes

"We should head back they will wonder where we went"

I said but still looked at him

"Yeah that would be a good idea"

But no one moved
We stayed like this for almost 5 minutes and I have no idea what he is thinking right now

But I'm surprised
He hasn't kissed any girl before me

"Ok we should really go now"

I broke the eye contact and held his hand

I think it shocked him cause of his facial expression

"This was always my dream"

I looked at him. Wondering what he meant

"Holding hands with the girl I love"

I blushed

"Me too"

We smiled and walked back

"Matthew. We are almost there we should stop holding hands now"

He looked at me but still held my hand

"Matthew?"

"I don't care I have been waiting for this for a long time and no one cared when we were at that restaurant and you and Taehyung held hands"

"We got scolded a lot and there was a rumour about is two dating?"

"Oh. But still we are dating so what's the problem?"

"The contract and disbanding?"

He let go and we walked in
I felt bad
He was right we are dating
But that shouldn't get in the way

"Somin, Matthew there you are we were worried you just walked away like that without telling us something"

"Something got in between I'm sorry"

I apologised to Jiwoo and she smiled

"Yep its not going to happen anymore anyways so yes don't worry it was a mistake to just walk away"

Wait mistake?
I looked at him in disbelieve
Did he really just said that

"Ok well we better start practicing for our debut its really important and we should practice more that usual today!"

I see what he is doing
Is he mad because of what I said?

We practiced and practiced and it was almost 1 am

"I can't dance or sing anymore"

I said laying down on the cold hard floor that is the most comfortable place right now

"We should stop. I don't want to lose my voice because of that"

We agreed and we all packed our stuff.

Matthew was the first to leave and I packed faster to follow him

"Hey wait for me!"

I ran up to him but he was looking so uninterested

"Soooo how was today. Are you exhausted?"

He didn't answer me

"Hello"

Still no answer.

"I am really exhausted how ab-"

"What is more important me or practice?"

He stoped but did not look at me

"You know the answer... its you"

He finally looked at me

"I don't think so. Why did you tell me to let go of your hand then. If I was more important that this stupid contract then why did you tell me to let go?"

I looked down cause he was right

"I'm not trying to be mean but you have to give me an answer. Me or practice?"

I couldn't answer
I didn't want to answer either

"I see..."

He looked back to the sidewalk

"If you can't give me an answer don't expect me to be your boyfriend cause if we are dating then I want us both to be sure that we will stay together and let nothing come in our way"

He walked but turned around again

"I thought you wanted to risk it. Seems like you don't"

And he walked away.
I wanted to cry

I had my first boyfriend

My first relationship

My first kiss

And my first break up

On the same day.