I always say I love myself, I always say I'm a great person, but I hate myself.
I hate myself with all the hatred that I should be spending on other people who probably deserve it even more.
I hate myself for not being able to trust people.
I hate myself for not being able to believe when someone loves me.
I hate myself for not being able to believe when someone cares about me.
And I hate myself for all of my trauma related personality deficits interfering with everyday life because I'm not the only one it affects, and I hate that.
I just want to be normal, just so people don't have to deal with secondhand what I have to deal with. It's one thing for me to have to be miserable; I just can't stand making other people miserable with me.
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Out of My Mind
Non-FictionA collection of enlightening perspectives from a very neurologically different person.