I want to go (a Carlisle X reader fanfic)

chapter 1

Y/n POV
I open the door and gaze one last time into my dream house.
I know what your thinking ?
You've got your dream house and your dream life why do you want to die?

Depression is a bitch.
And ever since I've moved from (old home country) to Forks .
The voices have gotten louder ,my mum and dad  tried to get me help.
But they said I was too far gone .

So here I am saying goodbye to life.

Because I can't continue fighting ,I'm too tired.
I am going to walk through my favourite forest ,And die in it .
So I can finally be at peace.
I closed the mahogany door hearing it thud behind me.

I walked through the green brush .
Talking to each plant as I crossed them.
How they were?
What were they doing ?
The usual you would ask anything  and anyone.

When I saw a familiar face .
Pale skin, Yellowstone eyes ,reddish brown hair .
"Hey why are you here Edward"
His eyes turned black  but he  then said .
"I was taking a walk why are you here"
A tear fell down lightly dropping onto the floor.
I then slung my arm over to dry the wetness.
"I was just going to have a long nap  under that tree. Camp in a way"

"More like kill my self .
Right here right now"

Edwards eyes dilated again .
"Your going to kill yourself aren't you"

My eyes copied  that of Edwards before.
"How did you do that .
Read my mind that was the exact wording in my brain"

Edward grabbed for me .
But I sheilded my thoughts .
Imagining my thoughts in a treasure chest .
Surrounded by a brick made  tall  dark fortress.
Then I  ran and ran .
And motioned towards the   tree, grabbed my razors and harshly cut both my wrists.
I then came closer to the tree I am  killing myself next to.
And hugged it, saying  sorry it had to witness this but that I would see it in my next life .

I then slid down the tree to a sitting position .
Looking up at the blood stain on the tree.
From were I hugged it and where  my wrists met the tree.
I looked Infront of me .
Edward coming back but then I let my mind wander. And I closed my eyes.

And felt someone checking my vitals .
I looked up and saw Edward his eyes a deeper black then before .
When he saw my eyes squint he ran .
At an inhuman speed.
That's when I came to a conclusion.

"Vampire definitely vampire"

Carlisle's POV

I was doing some paperwork .
When Alice came to say hi .
But was cut off by a vision.

"What is it Alice"

"There's a girl in the Forrest  .She's killing herself"

A tear ran down her cheek.

"Why are you talking in the present tense "

Alice turned to look at me directly .
Dread on her face.

"This isn't the future ,this is happening right now"

Catching the hint I ran out of our house to the opening of the Forrest .
That is when we found her.
There were small pools where her wrists were.
Edward was there holding her hand ,Eyes black .

"Edward you need to feed"

His eyes looked watery.

"I can't leave her here like this,no one should have  ever left someone like this. If someone is mentally unstable . They should be under 24 hour supervision"

I clasped Edwards shoulder .

"Go we don't have much time we need to change her,hunt  you need it "

He thought over for a moment and then hesitated .
And then  sped in the other direction.

Then I  picked her up  like a bride on a honeymoon and sped to our house .
Lying her on the table and bit her neck.

Her eyes opened ,pained screams leaving her lips .

"I wanna die just fucking let me die pleas"
She looked at me her eyes filled with pain and exhaustion.
But she was cut off by her own screeches.

As hours passed though the screams started to fade.
Her chest fell silent of any breath.

Her words burned in my mind.
"Let me die please"

I've never seen anyone so eager to die in my 400 years of living.
I wander how she'll feel when she wakes up.
Hopefully a tad bit better.
And hopefully more stable .