A soul with no face is like a lonely embrace But I know it's hard
I know it's hard to be alone
- Rain, The Teskey Brothers
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Third Person
He walked up to the grave and put her favorite flowers on her tombstone.
"Hey Maddie, it's our day, Saturday. I know you wouldn't like the fact that I'm still clearing my Saturday schedule to spend time with you." tears brimmed his eyes
"I- I still can't grasp the fact that you're not here. The one person who had a zeal for life isn't here living it" he smiled painfully letting the tears fall.
Madeline Kaori Nakamura- Maddie, Darren's best friend.
They had been best friends since Mrs. Dickens 3rd grade class. Although they spent everyday together, Saturday was their special day no matter how busy they were.
Darren would go over to Maddie's house and they would eat their favorite food, Pineapple pizza with extra cheese. They would watch their favorite movies and play all kinds of games.
As they got older Darren noticed that his love for Maddie wasn't just as a best friend but romantic also.
As a child Darren didn't have the best living environment, Maddie was his light at the end of the never ending tunnel. She was all he had, the only person he could tell about the things his father did to his mother and him. She was the only reason he woke up in the morning. She was the one person who made his awful life bearable.
Maybe his burdens were too much for her to bear. . . 3 years ago she took her own life, she was fighting demons that even Darren didn't know about.
What's the planets without the sun?. . . pure darkness.
"I can't live with myself knowing I didn't tell you how much I actually loved you." Darren dropped to his knees
"Fuck Maddie, why did you have to leave me?" he sobbed
"Why didn't you just tell me? I could've helped you, I loved you so much. . . I guess my love has never been good enough for anyone" he looked up to the sky to calm his tears
"I'm drowning in this world without you Maddie, I wish you were here to keep me afloat"
~FLASHBACK~
"D come on, stop being a wuss" 13 year old Maddie was trying to convince Darren to go on the scariest ride at this annual carnival
"I don't care if I'm a wuss, I'm not going on that, I'll stay here with your dad"
"You're no fun" she pouted and he rolled his eyes "If you go with me I'll . . . Let you have the extra slice on Saturday" "It was my week to have it anyways" he deadpanned
"Ok ok, I won't ruffle your hair for a week" Maddie was currently way taller than Darren since he hadn't hit puberty and would always ruffle his hair, much to his dismay.
"A whole week?" he debated with himself "Yes, a whole week" "Ok" he gave in and she squealed pulling him into a hug "Ok now get off of me" she let him go but her triumph smile could not be wiped off.
She grabbed his hand pulling him to the line for the ride.
They waited 45 minutes in line, the man strapped them up in their seats.
Darren heart was pumping out of his chest "Maddie if I die, I'm haunting you for the rest of your life" she laughed as the ride was pushing them up
"Oh hush, you're over ex-" she was cut off by the ride dropping them
They were screaming at the top of their lungs. Maddie had tears escaping her eyes while Darren refused to open his.
The ride ended and they were shaking while getting off, her dad was laughing "Was the ride that scary" he asked putting his arms around the both of them
"Dad i thought I was going to die" Maddie let out a shaky breath "I'm sure it wasn't that bad right Dar-" Darren ran to the nearest trash and threw up all the funnel cake he ate that afternoon
"Yikes, maybe I should call his dad-" Maddie's dad pulled out his phone but her voice stopped him "NO! I mean no, I'm sure once he rinses his mouth and drinks some sprite he'll be fine" her dad was hesitant but put his phone back "Ok"
Darren's home life was already bad enough, she didn't want to make it worse.
~END OF FLASHBACK~
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An Hour Later
"Bye Maddie, see you next Saturday" he smiled but his smile didn't reach his eyes.
He propped himself up and started walking to his car when he got a call.
He saw the name and debated wether or not to pick up He sighed and picked it up
"What do you want Liz"
Elizabeth Trainer- Liz, Darren's on and off girlfriend
"God why do you always sound sad, grow the hell up" he pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed Oh, did he forget to mention she's a raging bitch?
"Like I said, what the hell do you want?" he got in his car "My mom invited us to dinner" "Can't, I have better things to do" he started his car and the call transferred from his phone to the car Bluetooth Did he also forget to mention that he really doesn't like her or her family?
"What better things do you have to do? Mope around? Face it Dar, she's not coming back-" "Watch your fucking mouth" he growled "Oh, I'm so scared" she made her voice high and he rolled his eyes.
"Anyways see you at dinner, muah" she hung up, he put his head back and sighed "Look at what situations my fear of being alone gets me into" he whispered to himself
He brought his head back down and started to drive to new club called Sonic.
He walked right in, he happens to know the owner.
He went straight for the bar "4 shots of gin" the bartender nodded and brought them to him soon after He downed all 4 and ordered 4 more
He drowns the pain with the shots.
Shot after shot the pain numbs, he doesn't feel the weight of the world on his shoulders.
Shot after shot he feels his mind go blank, he was free from his never ending thoughts.
Shot after shot he felt good, really good. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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