Haru's Love (Steamy BL Harem)

Book 1: Haru to Aiden - Chapter 6

Haru

After dropping Jess off in front of her apartment, which she rented with some other university students, Aiden and I headed toward home. The journey was silent, and God, it felt strangely uncomfortable with just the two of us in the car. While Jess was around, it had been lively, with her chatting nonstop about her awesome life as a university student, along with me. But once she was gone, the atmosphere became tense, and damn, I so badly wanted to break the ice. I also wanted to know what Aiden had said to Camille after I left them back at the restaurant, because when I returned to clear away the dishes, she was gone. Then again, I didn't want to ask, because the thought of Camille pissed me off.

"So," Aiden began suddenly, breaking the silence and drawing my attention to him. "You said you're in love? That's the first time I've heard of it."

My heart skipped a beat, and I turned away, avoiding his sidelong glance. I felt my face heat up in the dimness of the car.

I said, "It's none of your business."

Yes, I was in love all right. Sickly so, with him.

"Look, I know it's none of my business, but..." He sighed. "You're acting strange lately, Haru. You don't confide in me anymore. I worry about you."

God, he was making it worse. How the hell was I supposed to confide in him? When the person I'm in love with was him? When it was forbidden? First, I didn't even know if he would accept me for who I was if I were to tell him that I was gay. The doubt and uncertainty was already making me sick with anxiety. What if I were to confess to him that the person I loved was him, too? How would he react? Wouldn't he just kick me out and never want to do anything with me again? If that was the result, then it was undoubtedly worse than death itself.

Then again, I knew Aiden well. He wouldn't do something like that. He was too kindhearted for his own good and loved and cared about us brothers a great deal. If I were to profess to him that I was gay, he'd just accept it simply because it was his obligation as the head of the family to support me as his younger stepsibling, even though deep down, he might find it disgusting.

I said, "I know you worry about me, Aiden. But I'm an adult now. I don't want you worrying about me. I can look after myself." I turned to him then, my eyes intense on his profile. I changed the subject and asked, "Are you planning on going out with that woman?"

He raised a brow as he glanced at me. "Who?"

"Camille," I said. "Are you planning on going out with her?"

He chuckled. "What made you think I'd go out with her?"

I licked my lips, suddenly nervous. "Because she acts like she owns you."

"I'm not interested in her, Haru," he said bluntly.

I felt relief sweep through me. "Good," I said, nodding my head.

Suddenly, I felt his hand tousling my hair, his thumb stroking my cheek. Fuck! Here we go again. I silently groaned deep inside, savoring the moment as he caressed me. My body became warm and weak against his gentle touches. Damn, but I wanted him to continue until we got home, at least. But alas, he removed his hand and rested it on the steering wheel. I tried my best to hide my disappointment by turning my attention to the scenery of the dark streets.

"So, are you going to tell me who it is?"

Still staring off unseeingly outside as the car sped by, I asked, "What are you talking about?"

"The girl you're in love with," he said.

I felt my heart aching as I asked, "You want to know?"

He said firmly, "I want to know, Haru."