°•The Night I Lost Us•°

-°Regret°-

Toya was running, however far his legs could take him.
He felt so bad.
He wanted to talk to Akito but his stupid mind really had to run from the problem.
He felt weak.

He ran back to his classroom, now empty.

He didn't bother eating. He didn't deserve to. Not after all that.
Not after what he did
Instead,
he laid his head down on his desk and silently cried.

The way his lover did too.

He wanted Akito back. He wanted to take all of this back.

He couldn't show up to practice. He knew that.
Not with Akito there. He felt as if he couldn't show his face around them anymore.
But he still wanted to sing with them. He wanted to feel that light, fuzziness warmth in his chest everytime he sang his heart out with him. With them.
He missed that feeling.
He wanted it back.
But he couldn't have it anymore.

He knew that the damage was done. He couldn't reverse this.
It had already been much too long.
But what if he was honest from the beginning?
Would any of this had happened?
But he wasn't.
So it happened.
All that guilt he won't ever get over.

Instead, he has to live with it.

With all that guilt.

Toya knew that.

"What have I done? Akito doesn't deserve that. None of them do. I really had to just go and ruin their happiness. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry! But what's the point? Could you even forgive me after all that, Akito?
......
Can I really do this?"

Toyas voice was hoarse and weak. You could easily miss it.

But one person didn't.

"........."

Akito was stood outside Toyas classroom, listening in to Toyas words.

"It's alright, Toya. I'll always forgive
you."