Book II of My Unfaithful Bodyguard

99. Ladybugs

REIGN's POV

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To say that the feeling was unsettling and nerve-wracking was an understatement. I was feeling like something was eating me alive from the inside, I just wanted my dear Mother Earth to rip open and swallow me whole. I was feeling even more pathetic like I wasn't feeling bad enough. I leaned in to kiss Nick and he flatly refused to kiss me back. Well, karma hit me like a smooth slap on my face; now I know exactly how he must've felt when he leaned in to kiss me on my birthday and I said no to him. And to put a cherry on top, I accused him of forcing himself on me.

What kind of an idiot are you, Reign?

And he thought I was using him as a rebound whereas it was the main reason why I wasn't making any move towards him. I know how he feels for me and I didn't want him to feel like I was using him to get over my trauma.

And that is exactly what he thought, then what was the point of resisting him?

I collect my legs and hug my knees, resting my face on them and gazing at Nick who was sleeping beside me like a baby. Mellow morning light was falling on him making his black hair and beard look brown under the light, his lashes were so thick and long, and his cheeks and nose looked flushed and pink.

Why are men blessed with features that they don't even need?

My eyes trail down to his lips and I stare at them. I should've kissed him when I had the chance.

I let out a sigh thinking about all the times I could have kissed him and I didn't because I was loyal to an assassin.

Our moments crossed my mind and I shut my eyes.

Whatever happened has happened. I can't do anything to change it now. I tried to kiss him for the first time when I felt like it was the right time and he rejected me. I'm not mad at him for rejecting me. I have rejected him multiple times before, I can take one from him.

Then why is it bothering me so much? Ugh!

Nick groaned softly shifting a little and opened his sleepy, swollen eyes. First thing in the morning his eyes fall on me.

"Good morning," I say.

He just kept looking at me with his lazy eyes.

Is he still mad at me?

I should be mad at him for not kissing me back and making a fool out of myself.

But it's fine, Reign. It's fine.

I have been telling myself that it's fine over and over again.

He sat up leaning on the headboard and hummed at me.

Well, what can I say, I hurt the guy many times.

I glance at the clock and it was quite earlier than before. We had to wake up before time as the photoshoot was taking place today.

The dress that the designers designed for me was ready. I had another session of fittings yesterday and it was finally a success. Monica liked everything and she was ready for the photoshoot to be held today.

Nick raked his hand through his ruffled hair and stretched out his arms; his obliques flexing as he stretched.

I quickly look away, I don't want to be caught staring again. But I couldn't control my eyes and watched him get out of bed and into the bathroom. I closed my eyes and stayed there for a bit until I dozed off again.