I was innocent,
Before you came
into my life
And ruined it
all for me.
Everything used to
feel so loveable,
But now it's
hard for me
to even breathe.
Broken far too much
to bear, this loss has been
sinking me in depression
my fears get the best of me.
They encroach upon
my anxious heart
and then tear me
into million pieces.
I feel trapped and I
can't find any release.
It feels like I'm
laying on a
bed of nails.
It feels like I'm
drowning in the
depths of a sea
so deep that I
don't know the end of.
It's like looking at abyss,
and it looks back at me.
Now they all judge
my character for
being with somebody
like you.
For loving someone
who only assassinated
my heart for fun,
I wish I knew
before falling in love
and in my own misery
by my own hands.
I wish I could rewrite
my destiny.
I lay on the floor,
lifeless, now cold,
In the tapestry of
my heart, this is
how I feel.
Unloved, unwanted,
emotionless, while
all I was looking for
was some heals.
But instead, I'm
struggling and
hiding emotions,
I'm putting on
fake smiles while
I take these doses
of hurtful and mean
words, about how I was
stupid enough to trust
you. To want you,
to love you, but
now it's all over.
I'm left with
anger issues, anxiety,
and a whole lot other
mental issues that I'm
trying hard to
take care of.
I'm trying to not be
insecure, I'm trying to
not put on a facade
And genuinely be
happy and
smile again.
I'm trying to
love again. Yet,
sometimes these
memories of you
come flocking
and I get confused
and emotional,
I yearn for you
in my heart,
while my mind
knows not to.
I'm so over this.
I simply just wanna
live again.
Be able to
smile without
these memories
flooding back again.
I wish I could stop
the dam of
these emotions
I want closure,
I want it to end.
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