The Promise...by Gwen

The Promise... Part 14

Tidak sedar it's Friday already. The day before yesterday sia ada text Mdm. Lara yg I need to take one more day leave on Friday sbb ada urgent family matter. Mdm. Lara okay juga since tiada kerja sia yg pending.

Nampak gaya sia terpaksa juga balik sendiri today sbb Kate and TJ bulih datang bisuk jak. Remember yg Kate bilang dia mau reschedule tu appointment sama owner budget hotel tu? Tdk dapat reschedule sbb tu owner will be on a business trip to Taiwan starts Friday afternoon and will only be back in KK after two weeks. Mau kasi awal tu appointment pun tdk dapat sbb tu owner masih di Singapore. So after saying sorry to me berabis, Kate and TJ said they will be there Saturday at least masa Steven dan family dia ada durang pun ada juga. I'm really not looking forward to the meeting anyway.

Pasal my morning sickness, luckily tiada lg yg telampau teruk mcm haritu, I learned by eating in small portion in shorter intervals really helps. Tp sia tdk makan yg berat. Sia lebih banyak makan buah2. Tp Dr. Satesh ada pesan juga not too much takut blood sugar naik pula. So I eat bland crackers begitu. Ada juga rasa mau loya2 time petang2 tp tdk sdh like last time. Sia makan tu gula2 hamoi yg Kate bought for me terus hilang tu rasa loya.

Kate and TJ pun rajin datang rumah to check up on me. Belum lg sia ada masak since durang ada di sini. TJ lah paling rajin beli stok makanan sia especially fruits 😊.

Sia balik naik teksi saja. Makin mau sampai pg my hometown makin sia rasa bedebar2. Balik2 sia tanya Kate and TJ kalau my belly is showing sdh but they said no. Kalau urang yg tidak tau tdk akan expect sia pregnant. Lega juga sia dengar tp sia masih lagi takut ni.

Balik ni pun sia pakai loose fitting mini dress. TJ yg kasi pilih from his boutique. Sia rasa selesa tp masih kurang yakin. Sia masih tutup belly sia guna sling bag sia.

Sampai jak my hometown sia tdk terus pg my parents house tp sia pg check in di nearby hotel, as planned.

Sudah siap urusan check in hantar semua barang2 pg bilik, sia text Kate and TJ di group Entens bgtau durang sia sdh sampai hotel.

I didn't even informed my dad yg sia sampai sdh and will be staying at the hotel. Malas sia kalau mummy tau memang mcm2 lg dia cakap tu but just as I was planning to take shower and rehat before pg cari makan mum called. Haishhhh...

📲"Mana sudah bah ko ni? Jangan cakap ko tidak balik aaa. Ko jangan ingat sia main2 cakap ko jangan lagi pijak sini klu ko tdk balik this time aaa. Jangan kasi malu sia! Sia sdh arrange semua ni, family Steven pun sudah informed, jangan ko pandai2 buat keputusan sendiri!"-Mum

Sia tutup mata sia rapat2 wishing I didn't have to listen to all she said just now. Mcm sia mau teriak jak ni but how could I do that to her?

📲"Don't worry mum, petang sikit sia sampai. Sia ada kerja lagi mau kasi siap so lepas ni baru lah sia pulang. - Riley

📲"Bagus! Bah okay!" - Mum

Never. Never had I felt the love and affection from her. Never. Sia langsung tdk faham kenapa my mum sangat2 benci sia. Dari sia kecil, sampai skrng. As if I'm not her own flesh and blood. Sia tdk sedar mengalir air mata sia ni.

Sia sentuh my belly. "Popi, no matter what, no matter how hard it will be for us nanti, mummy promise to be your best friend, mummy promise to love you and give you my best. Please know that your dad.. (teberenti sia cakap, mengalir lagi air mata sia).. Your daddy would love you just as much if he knew about you. Mummy minta maaf, bukan mummy tdk mau tell your dad about you, but it's complicated. Mummy just want your daddy to be happy, that's all. Mummy love you Popi".

Sia lap air mata sia dan bersiap untuk take a shower. Masa tengah shower sia menangis lagi, but this time because I miss Rhys. Sia rasa tdk fair utk dia dan tidak fair juga untuk Popi kalau sia tdk bgtau Rhys pasal Popi. It is true apa Kate cakap, he needs to know. How he's gonna handle this news is totally up to him. I made up my mind while taking my shower. I'm nervous but determined with it. All I need to do now is to go through with my determination.