ELLIE'S POV
I didn't bother to look around and see who's the owner of the voice but the southern accent that the voice had gave me enough hint to who that was. I heard Joel runninh towards me and as soon as he reached me he gave me a tight hug. Joel's hug gave me assurance that I was protected again but when he saw my two missing fingers I started crying again.
-" Baby girl It's ok I'm here I'm here" Joel said
-" Joel......I......I couldn't......I-I was about to but I just I couldn't " I said
-"Shhhhh.....It's ok It's ok" He responded
Joel helped me stood uo and rode me on the boat then started powering it
-" Let's go home" He said
-" Joel I can't" I said
-" Why?....kiddo we need to go home" He said
-" Joel I'm not ready....I need time to think I don't think I'd have the courage to face them yet.....especially Dina" I said
-" Ok......ok kiddo if that's what you want" He said
While we're travelling I couldn't get my mind off to what happened fulk silence started to rule as the ocean waves rush in to ruin it
-" Kiddo you did the right thing" Joel said then went silent again
-" This just means that you still have humanity inside of you and forgiveness.......It just shows that revenge didn't eat you whole" He said
-" Joel....are you saying that just to make me feel better because the truth is it ain't Joel that doesn't change anything.....I still made wrong decisions" I said
-" Kiddo your lost in vengeance at that time" Joel said
-" I'm a fucking idiot" I said
-" No you're not" Joel replied
-" Joel look at me.....look at my hand this happened because of my fucking stupidity....I'm a fucking idiot....Dina's right I should've just stayed in the farmhouse" I said
-" Kiddo you didn't do anything wrong.....vengeance drove you in this scenario it was never your fault" Joel replied
-" Joel I just don't want to go home yet....I don't have any face to show" I said
-" Kiddo....Dina's worried about you" He said making my heart hurt
-" Joel.....I.....I just need time for now" I said
-" Sure thing kiddo sure thing" He replied
The rest of the trip was silent then we came upon an abandoned City a few miles far from Jackson as much as Joel wanted to go back He knew that I'm not ready. I just want to get ready I want to think even if it takes months or years I'll take it if it means finding myself again
