We went back to the Royal Palace in the capital that night.
"You're tired, Zuko," I said, as we walked through the halls toward the throne room.
"I'm not," he lied.
"Have you looked in the mirror lately?" I said, brushing hair out of his face and glancing at the dark tones under his eyes.
"Your guards haven't been helping, have they?" I asked.
Zuko shrugged.
I led him through a curtained door. "That's why I called the Kyoshi Warriors," I said, gesturing to the group of girls in the room. In front were Suki and Ty Lee.
一 ꩜ 🌊 🌏 🔥 一
Both he and I might've slept better if we slept in the same bed that night. But I didn't ask, and neither did he. So I took to the room next door like usual, and it took me hours to fall asleep. I heard talking outside, but I was barely half-awake when I did, so I took no notice until I realized it would be Zuko. So I put on a robe and got out of bed and to Zuko's room, but he wasn't standing there next to Suki and Ty Lee.
"Where is he?" I asked.
"He went for a walk to get a drink of water," answered Ty Lee. "He'll be back."
"Okay," I said. But even if I told them it was, I was still worried. I didn't know why.
"You should get sleep, Jin," said Suki. "We'll keep watch, don't worry."
"Thank you," I told them, and I went back inside to sleep. but I left the door open the slightest bit, to hopefully know when Zuko came back. Of course, I fell asleep before then.
Zuko was already downstairs and dressed before I even woke up. I had asked the Kyoshi Warriors to come the day before we left Yu Dao. I hoped that some competent, familiar guards would help Zuko actually sleep through the night. But he still looked tired, so I assumed he didn't go back to sleep. His elbow was resting on the table and his head was in his hand.
"Good morning," I said.
"Morning," he replied bluntly.
"You didn't sleep last night, did you?" I asked, taking a seat. "Not even after you took a walk?"
"How did you --"
"I was awake too," I said. "I asked Suki, she told me you'd be back."
"No," he replied. "I didn't sleep."
"Zuko, there's something wrong," I said. "What is it?"
"Nothing's wrong," he said. "I just can't sleep."
"There is something," I said. "There's always a reason, for everything. You can tell me, Zuko. I'm your girlfriend, that's why I'm here."
"It's nothing," he said.
I gave up, knowing he was going to continue to be stubborn about it.
"Okay," I said, and breakfast was quiet, just like the rest of the day.
I barely saw Zuko, much less talked to him, and I couldn't even find him in the evening. I was extremely bored after dinner and ended up talking to Suki while she guarded a back door.
"Hi, Suki."
"Hi. Bored?"
"Very. Have you seen Zuko?"
"He's just coming back from the prison, I think."
"The what?"
"Um, the prison? You didn't know?"
"I knew there was something," I mumbled. "Do you know who he went to see?"
"I saw him go in, and I saw him come out. I didn't watch him go inside."
"Did you... sneak up on him?"
Suki looked down. "I was worried. I didn't know what he was doing. He's my friend. I'm sorry if --"
"I would have done the same thing," I said. "Thank you for telling me."
Suki smiled and bowed slightly.
I had an idea who he was meeting with. There was really only one possibility that was in the Fire Nation Capital Prison.
I watched Zuko for a second in the throne room. He stood tall in front of the throne, then lit the fire in front of it swiftly with a woosh. He watched it glow for a second, then sighed.
"This isn't me," he mumbled to himself, and put out the fire with a sssssss. Then I walked inside.
"Zuko," I said firmly, standing in front of him.
He looked a little surprised to see me. "Um, hi, Jin."
"Have you been meeting with Ozai in prison?"
"I -- Jin! Where did you hear that from?"
"Not from you," I said. "You're supposed to tell me things! I'm your girlfriend! I can help you!"
"I just..." he fell back to sit down. "You wouldn't understand."
"I wouldn't understand? Zuko, I'm not royalty, but I'm sure I've been in a similar situation. You don't have to keep to yourself anymore! You have people who care for you!"
I rarely yelled. But I was angry that he hadn't been telling me anything. I was always there for him, yet he didn't care to tell me this. I was sure I could help him better than his father. Ozai, of all people. Was he so desperate?
"Jin, I --"
"No, Zuko. I don't want to hear it. "
"I messed up. Please, Jin."
"I'm taking a break, Fire Lord. I'm done with this."
"Jin!"
I didn't listen anymore. I don't think I've ever been so angry with someone in my life. I didn't even know where I was going to go to. I could go to Hakan's and see Kyra, but I didn't want to ruin their time together. Just because I was furious at my boyfriend didn't mean I had to ruin her time. So I decided to take an overnight ferry back to the Earth Kingdom, then a train back to Ba Sing Se. But I didn't want my parents to think anything horrible either, so I'd stay in a hotel somewhere for the remaining three days of my trip.
I arrived in the upper ring of Ba Sing Se and decided to stay in the Elephant Koi Escape for the three days left. I hoped that giving myself time to just think stuff over would help me. But mostly, I wanted to give him time.
Was I too mean? Maybe. Maybe it was a petty reason. But you shouldn't keep things from your girlfriend. I know we don't get to see each other as much as we'd like to, but I still have strong feelings for him. Why would he keep things from me? Why wouldn't he come to me?
Did I love him?
YOU ARE READING
𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗖𝗜𝗧𝗬 𝗚𝗜𝗥𝗟 | zuko
Fanfiction(complete!) "you're the girl from ba sing se! you're jin!" ( avatar: tla ) [no characters are mine except for Kyra and Hakan ♡] [previously 1 in #azula !!!]