Young love - Parker booth

I havent seen you in forever

Madison POV
Before I knew it we were kissing. Like properly kissing. We pulled apart and just kind of looked at
One another.
"Um so I don't really have much luck getting close to people but.. if we do continue.. whatever we just did then... will things change? Like change change"
I said thinking every word through.
"I mean yeah but not in a bad way" he said casually.
"But what would change?" I asked.
"We would probably start dating and doing couple stuff" he said like it was obvious.
I sat up. "Okay but not saying that this would happen but what did one day we break up what would.. still be between us?" I asked my breath getting a little shaky. "Nothing if we break up then it would be over, you know. Everything would just kind of end" he said. "Oh.. and what if we don't date?" I asked immediately regretting what I just asked.
"Well then.. I guess we would probably forget about this and things would stay the same" he said letting out a long breath. "Why are you overthinking this?" He asked like he was being the smart one and thinking it through. "Because I wouldn't want to loose you" "so what we just don't date and just keep flirting all the time" he said sounding a little upset.
"Well I don't know maybe, I just- don't know"
"Don't know what? If you like me?" He asked.
"No no no of course I like you! But I don't want things to change, I mean your my best friend if we were to date and break up I would be loosing my best firmed and boy friend"
"Your right this wouldn't be a good idea I mean we are 16 we can't expect to stay together forever or anything" he nodded. "I'm sorry" I said my voice cracking a little. "Don't be, your being smart I mean it's good we talked about this" he said tearing slowly building up in his eyes.
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That night I went home and cried. Of course I've cried before but I've never cried like this. For this.
I didn't know what to feel, I was feeling so many confusing things so I stopped feeling in general.
That night was the last night me and Parker ever hung out. We saw each other and school still but something was off. A couple months later me and Parker only ever really smiled at each other in the halls. Until one day we didn't. That was it. Parker moved to london with his mom shortly after
It wasn't until senior year when I realized that Parker never took off the bracelet I gave him I seen it on his Instagram.
But it was okay because I still slept in his old t-shirt.
High school went by fast but it was fun at times other parts sucked.
It was now my first day at Washington state. I'm glad I chose to go here, it's close, I know the area and I had scholar ship.