Chapter 17

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What the fuck just happened I kissed Nathan like for real not just in my head and I told him my feelings out loud NOT IN MY HEAD I don't know how to feel im relief, I'm happy and to be for real I'm fucking terrified right now like what now we kissed and what start dating like that?  Have I ever had a boyfriend before?, yes I have but Nathan is different

He's important to me,  I care a lot about him and our friendship I can't lose that but at the same time I don't want the friendship I want him  all of him why do I make stuff so complicated We stopped kissing , we looked at each other still soaking up every thing that just happened it's a lot to take it I'm surprised I confessed first  but real question who's going to be talk someone need to break the ice

'So um .I have..go because I'm supposed to meet up with Trey' he says looking at me I get my bag And stood up  packing up my stuff

'Yeah I have to catch up with my AP homework so not a big deal'. I said awkwardly I think this is in fact a real life social Suicide  ' um okay see you Monday' he says  I nod my head. ' yeah Nate see you Monday' I said we didn't know if we should have hugged shake hands this is probably the most embarrassing thing in my whole fuvking life

I started to go home I text Maggie to come over it's an emergency I lay down in my bed

' YOU GUYS KISSED!' Maggie said  in shocked but happy.  ' yeah we kissed and I don't know what the fuck to do now' I said looking at the ceiling thinking about my life and how much I wanna scream

' I mean it's about damn time, you guys moved like snsils' she  said I chuckle at her slight comment 'yeah I know'. I sighed still looking at the ceiling
' so what the heck are you going to do now are y'all dating? Because if you are you'll have a date for homecoming and don't have to be a third wheel' she said I put my head up.

'We're not dating, even though we kissed we're not dating' I responded

It would be nice. but what if the kids was a mistake and it was in the heat of the moment type thing ..even if I did tell him I like him just like an hour ago I could just call him or even go across the street talk to him like a normal person and boom we date live happily ever after and just live our lives? No...the complicated messy process I think so

' you two should though, the way you two have chemistry, you're jealousy when he's talking to other girls nallison been waiting for happen' Maggie says

' you're right ' I said. ' he's the one considering we're in high school and I don't know the future I know he's the one right now and I love him'.

Damn that felt good getting that off my chest I do love Nathan I don't know what the future holds but what matters is our relationship in this moment

Meanwhile with the boys
' finally dude!'
. ' yeah I know' Nathan said as the boys play video games on the PS 4

' so y'all dating now?' Trey asked trying to beat Nathan in call of duty
' no just kissed but I'm thinking about making it official' he said pressing his buttons on his controller
' I mean you should the way you look at her, you guys spend hella time together, and nallison waiting to happen'.

' true, and I'll have a homecoming date for once I actually like '.

Trey laughs at him 'exactly and I know you love her and care about her' he says

'I do love her but first I have to prove it' Nathan says still playing video games with his best friend knowing this week is going to be the most memorable week of him and my life atleast for our little love story

On Monday I was at school at my locker this Friday is homecoming dance I already bought my dress and I'm getting my hair done I'm so excited I bought my tickets so did everybody else in the school this whole weekend though no text or call from Nathan even if I seen him I don't know what to say he didn't say he likes me the way I like him

'What about his one ?' Maggie asked I look at Maggie's phone ' mags just pick a dress you already looked at like 20 dresses' I said   She looks at me

'Allie you know I'm indecisive ' she says.   ' yes you are indeed ' I said closeting my locker we started walking

' how about yellow, that's literally you're color'. I said pointing the yellow dress on Pinterest ' yeah it does fit me' she says

'also  you wore yellow on your Quinceanera and you look amazing ' I said pointing that out she nodded her head

' fine we're going with yellow'. I said she found the dress and now it's settled

Trey and  Maggie are going to look so good at homecoming I already voted them homecoming king and queen they are royally at it's finest

' you and Trey are going to have the best outfits' I said.

'Oh no you and Nathan are going to look hot ass fuck he's already going to win homecoming king' she says

'Yeah and diamond as queen '. I said giving her a look ' yeah sure considering no one give a fuck about her anymore  ' Maggie added

I chuckled
' that's true'  I replied. Trey walked  up in us greeting  his girlfriend and me ' you guys excited for Friday?' He asks us we both nodded our heads

' yup and my dress is going to blow you away' Maggie said   ' I hope so, Allie you for a date?' He asked me

' nope solo as usual'. I said

' come on you and Nathan you two don't have dates it's bond to happen' Trey says as always Maggie agrees with her boyfriend

' guys ms and Nate are not officially dating he didn't even ask me so as of right now no date'. Speaking of the devil it's like clockwork I say he's name one maybe two times and he just there he walked up to us greeting mags and Trey then it came to me

'Hey Allison' he says what the fuck, did this boy call me Allison n Allie what the bell I know we kissed and everything but not calling me Allie is drawing the line

'Sup Nathan how are you?' I asked trying to be cool not awkward witch is very hard by the way

'Good, ..' he replied. 'and yours?' He asked Maggie and Trey look at each other slowly walking away. ' cool you know my typical reading, writing and ..other stuff' I said

Yeah this is awkward even for me it's painfully awkward. ' so about a couple days ago'. He was about to talk about it am I ready to talk about it? It's something I can't involve hud at the same time-

'Oh the kiss..right just a heat of the moment so I get it totally not happening again,;right?' Id asked in the inside I'm dying what the hell is wrong with me and my brain

'Yeah hear of the moment, so does that mean you didn't mean what you said?'

Shit

' didnt meant anything just a emotional moment'. I said he face changed

'Oh okay just making sure'. We look at each other we both know we were lying to ourselves but none of us have the courage to say it he looked like he wanted to kiss me again but the bell ringed I headed off to class quickly

Nathan had some things to do and quickly

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