Y/n is in need of a roommate to help
with bills. While putting up signs and internet group sites She starts to give up until he calls her and everything seems great and peachy. Until she walks in on something that will change her view on him forever...
After losing y/n I barley got sleep and I neglected Lai and kitty to the point i left them at the house
I mainly be at the company being with other girl's instead of them. I have been partying and i have been with other women
I can't go back home because it has to many memories in there. And my home left me for another guy.
Today i had no choice to go home since i was finally gonna let the girls go
I knocked on the door and it was no answer. I didn't have time for this.
I unlocked it with my keys and i called out to them and no answer-
Lai comes out with bags in her hands pausing and i froze. Something in me wanted to stop her but what do i say after so long
L-Jacob Hi.
J-what are u doing?
L-i came to get my last bags...Kitty is waiting for me.
J-Waiting for what?...u leaving?
She sighs coming closer and i stop her from passing me
L-Jacob pls...don't do this again. You want her and thats ok... Thats ok.
I tried not to get mad because i knew who she was talking about
L-u need some time. You lost the love of your lif-
J-shut up and just fucking go. She wasn't the love of my lif-
L-Jacob we have been together longer than u and y/n but i see the way u looked at her. I also found that note she left you
J-...
L-we are leaving and Ik u don't care but i will always love you Jacob...I hope you heal.
J-Lai-
She left and closed the door and i sighed tearing up. I hit myself in the head angry at myself and to punish myself.
About the thought that keep creeping up...
Y/n would've stayed with me like she did that night. She would've held me. I went to the kitchen getting a bottle of water then going to my room
I put on some tv, laying down,and pulling out some blow. I sniffed my hand letting it enter my system and laying back
I also started doing dope. Its the only thing that calms me down while i await that big bitch return. She will come back.
I'm my plan worked...she will probably think she made a mistake and probably fuck up with that dude and come back
****
-Y/n Pov-
I just got back from the gym and i yell out telling Rui if he is here that i was home
I was all sweaty and stink hut i looked good
اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.
I lost some weight but i don't wanna loose all of it. I just want to stay healthy and make a gym habit.
Y-Bae?!-...
Dani comes out the room walking by me to leave giving me a look before closing the door
Rui comes out Shirtless with his phone in hand
اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.
R-ur home...had fun at the gym?
All from his demeanor I knew he did something toxic, he was pissed and/or he cheated.
I already felt as if i was making a mistake and i feel Jacob really has changed so ill just go back to him
Y-...i'm not doing this
I was about to walk out to before i was snatched back him and he closed the door standing in front of it
Y-Let me out Rui!
R-NO!
Y-no?! What were u just doing? And why was she here after u said u would get rid of her
R-I did...i was moving on happily with you trying to go by my heart and by a book so i can be better for you!
Y-u are such a liar! U act as if i didn't see her coming from ur fucking room while u are shirtless!-
R-she already wishes the worst for us ok? We had a talk and she got the last of her stuff I found since she is getting her own house with her friends
I chuckled in disbelief still not getting how this is all ok
R-I don't wanna prove her right and get my fucking heart broken. As it is scary for u, its scary for me too!
Y-Who says i'm gonna break ur heart?!
R-You just might...for all i know u already did. I know ur still in love with him.
Y-Rui i told you i don't wanna do this and no i fucking don't-
R-then what is this?!
He pulled up his phone and it was the stuff in my laptop i was looking up about Jacob...he went through my things?
Y-How did you-
R-u left it unlock and u got a notification from the site that he just posted. U turned on post notifications as well. Thats so sweet.
Y-Rui I swear I was just trying to do what u wanted
R-even so u could've looked up other videos!
Y-I'm sorry Rui. I-I'm not gonna hurt u and baby I didn't hurt u, i'm still coping
R-so u do still love him
Y-No, It's all just new to me. And it its been so long since I been intimate and u won't even touch me. I want u to make me forget. All the things u do for me I love but u won't...touch me how I want u too.
R-...
Y-I don't wanna lose u. Especially not this early. Ur trying and i can see it but i want you to show me.
R-...
Y-can you say something?
R-i need some time.
Y-Rui-
R-u act like you need to have sex to be happy. Give me time I just need some time to think.
He walked away and I wanted to stop him but he was right.
There was a time when i didn't want it. But Jacob manipulated me into giving it up so now thats all i know
I go to the couch sitting down sighing
All because of me not being able to let go I'm ruining something that could be so beautiful.
He isn't even around anymore yet he stills manages mess things up for me
