Anastasia

Help me

"Damon" growled I was frustrated

"You look ravishing" he told me, "so delicious" he sniffed my neck, he then put his hand on my neck and started to squeeze, I scratched at his hand as he squeezed harder

"Damon" I strained to say, but he just squeezed harder I tried to kick him, to punch him, I scratched at his hand again, why was he doing this? Was he possessed? That must be it, he must be possessed "Damon, fight it" I managed to say I kept scratching him but it made no difference my eyes started to roll, and his red eyes were scaring me, with some strength I blinked away, I blinked behind Damon and kicked the back of his legs, so that he'd fall down "What were you doing?" I asked rubbing my neck, he stood up so fast I nearly got whiplash he was hugging me, and I pushed him away "get off me" I shouted angry tears rolled down my face

"Anastasia let me explain"

"Explain? You tried to kill me, you're my mate and you tried to kill me"

"It was a test" he told me to which I furrowed my eyebrows

"I needed to see if you would be able to fight me off if I ever lost control, you can't compell me Anastasia and that worries me, it scares me, I'm scared for you, of me, what if I hurt you?"

"Damon, you just did" I told him as I went and sat on the bed, I was still rubbing my neck even though it didn't hurt anymore Damon came and sat at my feet, I was too upset to tell him to come and sit next to me

"Why didn't you save yourself sooner?" he almost whispered "why didn't you blink sooner?"

"Because" I couldn't answer, his head was on my bare leg and it felt wet, the vampire was crying, I let him cry, he deserved it, I mean it's one thing to test your mate but to strangle them

"I'm sorry" he whispered

When we slept that night I stayed away from him, it took me longer than normal to fall asleep, because my body wanted to be close to him, but I didn't move

The next day, at breakfast I sat next to Charlie instead of Damon, Charlie looked at me questioningly, they all did but I concentrated on my breakfast I had a piece of bacon and some toast, which I was having a hard time eating

"Uh, so today we'll be talking to the servents,  queen Leah, and you and King Mali are not allowed to be there, I hope that's OK?" Dylan asked his question but he couldn't stop looking at me

"That's fine" Leah assured

After breakfast, in which I didn't eat much, we were shown to the throne room, there were two thrones here, I assumed they were for Leah and Mali, and Mali insisted I sit on one, Damon sat on the other, but I did everything in my power to not even look at him, let alone touch him. We spoke to the servents, and most were happy with Leah, two of them wanted Jonah back as they liked his way of ruling I told them, quiet calmly, that if they did want Jonah back they could join him in his banishment, Damon tried to touch me supposedly to calm me down but I didn't let him touch me.

When it was time for a break I blinked to my room, leaving the men in the throne room, not five minutes later I heard a knock, I knew it was Charlie so I told him to come in

"What's wrong? What happened?" He asked me as he sat next to me  on the bed

"Nothing" I lied

"I thought we were friends" he told me

"We are" I assured

"Then talk to me, what's wrong?" He asked again,

"Damon tried to kill me last night" I began, and I told him what happened last night

"He was testing you?" Charlie questioned I just shrugged "shit, I'm so sorry Anastasia, I don't even know what to say to you, I mean I know he loves you, but gods, some test" we sat in silence for a while I guessed Charlie didn't know how to make me feel better

"Our first fight" I thought out loud, Charlie said nothing.

That night when it was time for bed, I asked Charlie if I could sleep in his room, and he or Dylan sleep in mine

"It's fine, I'll sleep on the floor" Damon offered

"Please" I asked the lycan, Charlie nodded

"I'll sleep in your room" Charlie offered, as much as I disliked Damon right now I didn't want him to sleep on the floor, that wouldn't be right, I mean I knew in his head he was doing something good, it was weird because I never feared him before, even before I had my powers I never feared him, I was alone with him in my house in the mortal world and I was still never scared of him and now?, now those red eyes that I always liked seeing before, scared me, I hated feeling like this, I was powerful  the most powerful being in the world and I was scared of my mate.

When I got to Dylans room my pj's were on his bed

"Charlie bought them in earlier" Dylan told me, I just nodded and used his ensuite to do my nightly routine, when I came out I saw that Dylans pillow wasn't in the bed I could hear his heartbeat on the other side of the bed, when I went to look I saw he was lying on the floor

"Dylan? What are you doing down there?"

"You sleep on the bed, I'll sleep on the floor" he announced

"No, what? Stand up" he got up "get in the bed"

"But what about you?" He asked

"We can both share a bed, Dylan" I told him with finality I got in bed and Dylan slowly followed probably hoping I'd stop him, I didn't "do you snore?" I asked, Dylan looked at me and saw my smile "I don't, do you?" He was smiling too

"I don't know, never had any complaints before though" he reasoned I turned to face him in the bed

"You've known Damon for a long time, right?" I asked him

"Three hundred years" he said proudly as he also turned to face me "and before you ask no I don't know why he did what he did if I wasn't a pacifist I would've killed him" I smiled at that "I can't justify what he did, but I do know that he loves you, it was a weird way of testing you though I just don't get it, I don't get him"

"Understatment of the century" I said "I love him Dylan, I really do, but people who love each other don't do things like this, do they?"

"No, Anastasia, they do not, hey do you want to cut this trip short? Go back home? When you're both feeling better we can do it again"

"No Dylan, I can't, we need to do this, it will keep my mind off things, if we go home I'll go mad, and besides, how do we come back from this? I don't think things will ever be the same again"

"Hey that's not true, Damon is your mate, you were made for each other"

"Maybe we got it wrong, you know? maybe we're not really mates, maybe it was a cruel joke written by the gods so that they could have a laugh" I laughed

"Do you really believe that?"

"No" I scoffed, Dylan hugged me as I started to cry, he kissed the top of my head. I didn't know what to do, but the answer came sooner than anyone could've anticipated.