Trust [boyxboy]

I have been left with a curse. A damn curse preventing me from trusting anymore. Not by some mystical being no, by people, who meant so much to me, now mean nothing. These people who did it were normal human beings who don't really mean what they say and don't really care about people. People who used others to get what they want. They promised they wouldnt hurt me, ever. I always ended up letting them back into my life when I knew I shouldn't and punished myself afterwards. I was used, like a tampon, then just thrown away without a care. Now my walls are built and theres no way they are coming down.

In doing so, I got hurt and hurt people who really mattered in my life, my friends. Its something im not proud of and I would take back doing so if I could. They still don't know, and I never want them knowing. They would hate me forever. They would never have done something so bad to me. I wouldnt know how to apologize if they found out. I dont think I could.

My name is Kyle. I am 15 years old now, but during half of it I was 14. My hair color varies but now it is a brown, black mix kind of. I have deep blue eyes and a nice smile. Im kind of skinny but I am super insecure. My hair is sort of long and I am pretty tall. I really want to be a pornstar when I grow up. I am not cut out for it though.