What He Doesn't Know Won't Hurt Him

Chapter One : I Love You...But I Hate You

I walked out my front door.

It was cold.

Even with my ten pound jacket on.

Another cold Saturday afternoon.

The wind automatically hit my face.

I held myself to keep warm.

I hate winter.

I saw Austin by his car.

He was waving at me.

Austin, he's my best friend.

He's been my friend for three years now.

He's my only friend actually.

Everyone else thinks I'm this weird emo girl, but Austin doesn't.

He sees the real me.

The real Jane.

He sees behind all my make up.

Behind my dark clothes.

Behind my died hair.

He sees everything no one else sees and for that I love him.

I love him so much it hurts.

I started to walk toward his car.

When I got in front of him he hugged me very tightly.

His hugs were always so comforting.

I never wanted to let go.

I hugged him back and closed my eyes.

He's so warm.

Even in this freezing cold.

I heard the car door open.

Then I heard someone clear their throat.

Austin and I stopped hugging and I looked to see who it was.

Melanie, Austin's girlfriend.

Also known as the devil.

Oh how I hate her so much.

Most of my hate is jealousy though.

Jealous over the fact she gets to hold Austin whenever she likes.

Kiss him, hold his hand even make love to him.

"You didn't tell me she was coming" I hissed while staring her in the eyes.

I was giving her the evil look.

"Of course I'm coming. I'm his girlfriend" She said while walking over to Austin and holding his hand tightly.

I rolled my eyes.

We were going ice skating.

I hate ice skating, but I only said yes because of Austin.

He invited me, but I didn't know the devil was coming along with us.

I should have expected this.

Wherever he goes she goes.

"I don't want to go anymore" I said.

"Great. You'd be a third wheel anyway" Melanie said.

Austin turned to Melanie.

"Melanie! Why would you say that" He said angrily.

"Because it's the truth" She replied.

She's right though ever since they got together I've been the third wheel.