What He Doesn't Know Won't Hurt Him

Chapter Five : So Clueless!

The past few days.

Have been pure hell.

I've been avoiding Austin.

With every chance I got.

I bet he's been way too busy with Meanie to even notice.

Yea.

They got back together.

And now closer than ever.

They constantly make out in the hallway.

Walk to their classes hand in hand.

I guess time apart does help couples.

Ugh.

I hate Austin.

I hate Melanie.

And I hate my life.

And now I've got to get ready for another day at school.

Also known as the torture chamber.

I finished washing up.

Then went to my closet.

To pick out my clothes.

Black everything.

Like usual.

I walked downstairs.

And saw my mom eating cereal at the table.

She looked up at me and smiled.

"How are you feeling?" She asked.

She knew about my break up with Austin.

She's been trying to help me with it.

It's not really working.

But I don't want to make her feel bad.

"Better...I guess" I said.

She smiled again.

"Have you talked to Austin?" She asked.

Psh.

Why would I ever talk to him again.

He broke my heart.

"Nope...still avoiding him" I said.

She sighed.

"Jane...you're going to have to talk to him sooner or later" She said.

"I rather talk to him never" I said.

"Jane!" My mom snapped.

"Fine. I'll talk to him today" I said.

She smiled.

"Good" She said.

I started walking toward the door.

"Aren't you going to eat breakfast?" She asked.

"Not hungry" I said.

I barely eat anymore.

My depression is probably coming back.

Ugh.

Could this get any worse?

I walked out the door.

And began to walk to school.

It only took a couple of minutes to get there.

As soon as I walked in.

I went to my locker and went straight to French class.

I saw Austin talking to his friends.

I walked in front of him.

"We need to talk" I said.

As mush as I really didn't want to.

I told my mom I'd talk to him.

So now I have to.

He smirked.

Then grabbed my arm.

And took me to a quiet corner.

He let go of my hand.

Then looked at me.

"So you've stopped avoiding me" He said.

I rolled my eyes.

I'm surprised he actually noticed I was avoiding him.

"You noticed!" I said sarcastically.

He rolled his eyes.

"Of course I noticed you're my best friend" He said.

"Was. I was you're best friend" I corrected.

He sighed.

"C'mon Jane don't be that way" He said.

"Be what way, Austin. You broke my heart. How else am I supposed to act" I said.

"It's not like we were a serious couple" He said.

God.

Austin.

Just shut up.

And stop being such a jerk.

I rolled my eyes.

Then slapped him across his face.

"Ow" He whined as he held his cheek.

I just really needed to do that.

He's being too much of a jerk.

"You're so clueless" I whispered to myself.

"What was that for!" He yelled.

"Austin...I'm in love with you" I said.

He looked at me confused.

He must have really not known.

He ran his hands through his hair.

"I don't know what to say" He said.

I sighed.

"Don't say anything" I said.

Then walked away.

And sat back in my desk.

The bell ring.

And class started.

I can't believe it.

I confessed my love to him.

But he'll never love me the same.

What a damn shame.

I really do hate my life.

Austin came back to his seat which was next to me.

He stared at me.

But I didn't look back.

"Jane?" He asked.

"Class has begun, Austin.Time to learn so be quiet" The teacher said.

Austin sighed.

Then turned to the board.

But throughout the whole class.

He kept glancing at me.

I can tell he wants to talk.

And apologize.

He didn't know I felt that way.

And that's why he treated me like way.

Like our break up was nothing.

But now he knows.

And he doesn't know what to do.

Well guess what, Austin.

Neither do I.