imagines <3 joji miller

party girl (pt. I)

your pov :

i sat at a small table smoking a cigarette on the balcony of max, ian, and joji's shared apartment

max had thrown another party and i needed a breather

ian and i had broken up no more than a month ago and max invited me here as a way for me to "get out" and "meet new people". but i overall wasn't much of a party girl

it was a chilly october night in brooklyn, i looked down at my phone to read 11:46pm

i heard the sliding glass door open behind me and someone stepped out to join me on the balcony, but i didn't bother to turn around

what felt like a male presence stood beside me and i felt a rather large jacket wrapped around me, i was wearing black heals and a rather tight, black and glittery dress with small straps

the cold didn't bother me much, i turned to the figure beside me to discover it was joji, and i pulled off the jacket, handing it back to him,"i'm not cold, thank you"

he insistingly wrapped it around me yet again, "i know you're cold, no need to act tough, y/n" he laughed a bit and i smiled, flicking debris off the end of my cigarette

i grabbed the pack of cigarettes from off the small table, handing joji one and lighting it for him. he took a hit from it and held it between his fingers

"listen i'm sorry about you a-", i cut him off by grabbing his face and kissing him, knowing exactly what he was about to say "i don't wanna talk about it."

joji nodded, looking down, over the balcony

i didn't know why i kissed joji, i was over ian, right?

i sorta always did have a thing for joji, but the feelings weren't reciprocated

i looked down to joji grabbing my hand and leading me inside to the party where it seemed to have mostly calmed down

only a few people were left, mostly ones passed out across the couches and on the floors. i guess i didn't realize how long me and joji were talking, but time always flew with him

he led me up to his room and unlocked the door, seeing as he didn't want randos hooking up in his bed during the party

we sat beside each other on his bed, it was silent for a few moments

"i like you a lot, y/n. i always have. but you got with ian, you two seemed so happy, i couldn't ruin that, i had no right to." joji said awfully quick

i looked down, picking at the sequins on my dress. the room was fairly dark, but i knew exactly what joji's face would've looked like in the moment.

"me and ian werent happy. he cheated on me when i wouldn't have sex with him. he got drunk and we got into arguments." i finally spoke

though i know he couldn't see me, joji could heat the sleepiness in my voice,"i'm sorry."

i nodded, not exactly knowing what the right thing to say would be

"do you wanna stay the night?" he spoke in a nervous tone, and i nodded, knowing he was looking at me and could at least see the outline of my body

he got off the bed, rummaging through his drawers and handing me one of his sweaters to sleep in

i peeled off my dress and slipped on the sweater as joji pulled off his pants and shirt, sliding underneath the comforter

i laid on his chest and his hand grazed up and down my leg, kissing my forehead.

"goodnight y/n."

"goodnight, joji"

~this is actually going to have a second part where things get interesting, but i figured it was already pretty long and didn't want to continue here. but the next imagine will be the second part <3 mwah