imagines <3 joji miller

i'll wait for you

your pov:

"you all ready for school, big girl?" i smiled, buckling the small child into her car seat

"yes mama!" lydia giggled, and i got into the drivers seat, beginning the 20 minute drive to the preschool

sushitrash has requested to follow you

sushitrash wants to send you a message

i looked to the message, my heart skipping a beat, and before i knew it the car was out of my control

i felt my head jolt forward and i was sent into a black abyss

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beep beep. beep beep. beep beep

my eyes fluttered open in the bright white room, monitors surrounding me

i turned to see a figure next to me, facing the window, and i used all of my strength to murmur a "hello?"

immediately, the man turned

it was joji

joji was lydia's dad, and my ex boyfriend, but he left when he found out i was pregnant

i thought about not having the baby, but i couldn't give up my angel

she was all i had left of joji

he reached for my hand, and i let him hold it, before the realization hit me

"is she okay?" i asked anxiously, almost jumping out of the hospital bed

he nodded, "lydia's fine, broken arm and needed some stitches in the back of her head, but she did great with them, didn't even cry. she's tough, just like her mama"

i smiled a bit to myself, relieved

"how did you know?" i asked softly

he sat on the bed beside me, "hospital called, i guess i was still under the emergency contact list"

i nodded, and the door opened, a small lydia wobbling in with a nurse

"hi princess" i smiled and joji reached his arms out, knowing i was too weak to hold her, and she went straight into his arms

she's never met him, but maybe she just knows. kids are weird like that

he held her on his lap as they sat beside me and he squeezed my hand

"i want to be a part of her life." he stated, and lydia played with the strings of joji's hoodie

i nodded, calmly, not knowing what to think of the situation

"i just don't know if-"

he cut me off

"i understand, i'll give you time to think over it, and when you're ready, i'll be here. i'll wait for you, y/n. promise." he spoke sincerely, an emotional look in his eyes that stared back at me

i missed him, but i don't know if he's ready to commit to parenthood

would we get back together?

would be just be co-parenting?

i'm exhausted

i turned to the nurse on the other end of the room, signing some papers, "alright, y/n you're ready to go" she spoke, handing me some paperwork, and leaving the room

i stood up from the bed, joji rushing over to help me change back into my clothes

my white t-shirt was covered in blood, and i began sobbing

he pulled me into his arms, rubbing my back because he knew it calmed me down and i eventually pulled myself together, pulling on my sweatpants and he pulled his hoodie over me, putting the stained t-shirt into a bag

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we finally made it back to my apartment and lydia was fast asleep

"i can put her to bed if that's okay?" joji asked, already holding her in his arms

i nodded, and placed a kiss on her small cheek before he headed down the hall to look for her room

i set my bag on the kitchen table and made my way to my bedroom, changing into a large t-shirt and getting into my bed

joji walked into the room moments later

"i guess i should get going.." he rambled

"you can stay here, i know it's kinda late" i offered timidly, pleating the blanket in my hands

he nodded, slipping off his shoes and getting into the bed beside me, and as if it was instinct, he pulled me closer to him, and i finally felt at peace again

~ this was kinda weird and sad and boring i'm sorry i'm sorta going through a writers block but i wanted to give y'all SOMETHING to read

anyways go read my other joji book i'm working on "in the clouds" :,) love u all