you never got to know how i felt about you
i think that it was mainly because i was too scared to confess that my heart would beat 10 times more whenever my eyes caught a glance of you.
you never got to know how it broke me down that you prefered to go and search someone else's heart, and i'm sure i should be happy for you, but i can't bring myself to it
i don't think it is fair the way everyone gets to love and be loved, and yet i am only admitted to feel for others, while their hearts don't ever even hear my name in sync with their own thoughts.
i don't find it fair that you get to love the ones closest to me while i'm stuck overthinking over why i've never been the chosen one or why no one has ever thought in such a loving way about me
i want to feel loved and seen and worth it and worshipped, i think i deserve it.
you never got to know how much it hurts me still that i'm the ghost standing, quiet, while the world of the living loves itself fully, in a way i may never be allowed to feel.
