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'Who the hell gave you permission to be here Amelia?'
That was all I heard repeatedly in my head for the past 23 hours and 45 minutes. And the answer to that was simple, "no one did, and I know I shouldn't have even been here in the first place."
I knew it. This friendship thing was too complicated from the start. I should have never agreed to Andre's request for lunch nearly 4 weeks ago, and I definitely shouldn't have continued to meet with them. And I tried. I tried so hard to stay away from them, but somehow, I always found myself surrounded by those three boys. It was like I lost all self-control.
It was like I forgot who I was.
I didn't want to be a burden to them, and I certainly didn't want to come in the way of their friendship. I didn't mean for Andre and Jamal to catch me outside and I definitely didn't mean to cry in front of them. I hoped that the three of them were okay after what had happened last night.
After Andre dropped me off yesterday, I simply flopped into my bed and cried for what seemed like hours on end. I couldn't get Leo's raging face out of my head, and as much as I tried, I couldn't get his words out of my head either.
I knew that he didn't like me. I knew that from the start. However, I thought that something shifted between us in the last week. It was like we came to an understanding. The moment he called me Moonie, although I didn't quite know what it meant or why he called me that, I thought he even considered me a friend.
But I was wrong.
I didn't belong here, and I definitely wasn't going to intrude in a place where I wasn't welcome.
Despite his rage being somewhat too much, I also felt bad about what happened yesterday. I never meant to step on a boundary I wasn't allowed to cross, and I didn't mean to hurt Leo as I did. I felt horrible about what I did, which made me cry even more.
By nightfall, I had simply run out of tears. I was sick of thinking about it, so I decided to delve into my textbooks. Even better, I wrote my english assignment on a random topic. It wasn't grand, but I finished it and handed it in anyway.
By the time I was done, it was 1 in the morning. I decided that it was a good time to go to sleep, so I sauntered over to my bed, and drifted off right away.
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It was finally Saturday morning. I groggily got out of bed and made my way to the bathroom. After going through my mundane morning routine, I decided to head to the cafe for some food. I simply grabbed my breakfast and headed back to my room to eat.
I was not in the mood to be around people today. I wanted to just curl up in a ball on my bed and lay there. After breakfast, that is exactly what I did. I don't know how much time had gone by, but I still lay there, doing absolutely nothing.
I don't know what had came over me. But for some reason, I felt absolutely devastated. I felt like I had lost something important in my life, and that was not a good feeling.
After what seemed like hours, there was a knock at my door. I sighed and stayed in bed, hoping the person on the other side would just go away.
However, after nearly five minutes of knocking persistently, I realized that the person won't be giving up. I sighed and finally pushed myself off the bed. I pulled the door open to see who it was.
To my surprise, Gemma stood on the other side with a grin on her face. She was holding a plastic bag and a backpack as well.
"Hey girl! I thought we could chill tod- whoa, what happened Amelia?" she suddenly said, coming closer to examine my face.
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Dragoste"Can we stop feeling guilty, Amelia? Guilty for all the things that weren't our fault." "We can Leo. Maybe someday." "That day isn't far off Amelia. I'll make sure of it." ___________________________________ There is a lot to think about when you f...