Do I qualify as crazy?

Beautiful world

I thought about going to Victoria Park
and taking all of my clothes off
It wouldn't matter, because it would be dark
opening the vodka
because the vodka never gets old
Besides the vodka will help me to forget the cold.
I thought to myself no one will find me in the morning
All of my empty threats are starting to get boring
The voice in my mind is telling me it's time to start mourning
I am not good enough, no?
Well when I die, it will be you that I am haunting.

If I am to die
I want those who I love to know that I tried
It was always for you, never for me
I wish I could be who I want me to be.
I am so weak, yet I am so strong,
I've been fighting off this impulse for far too long.

My demons, they will not leave me alone.
I want you all to know you are the ones that saved me
but only I can be my hero.

I'm sorry if I let you down
There is not long left
I do not know if I can go on now.

I will fight to make my life good,
I refuse to trust what stabbed my back
I am trying to dream big and I promise you I will reach that

I cannot relive that
It always replays, over and over
I suppose that is why I always get so down
But I just can't seem to push this memory out

I keep screaming out
But no one seems to understand that I am broke
He was the one, the one who caused me to always choke
Maybe I can wash this sin of my skin
It will have to be the bath that I drown in
Maybe I will drown myself now
Drown the memories out
Drown all of the pain

I just need to calm down
Loosen my hands put the knife down
Don't let him ruin your life
You can make it now

The mirror is talking now

No one will ever be able to help you
Unless you help yourself
Save that little girl
She's crying, crying for you to save her
Tell her that she is safe
Promise her you will not let her down
Because you are going to make it
Go and see that beautiful world now.