So It's You (Saint Claire I)

Part 73

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Dec 05 | 6:13PM

Madam Eula
Kayla
Are you okay?

Kayla Stupid Bitch
I'm okay

Madam Eula
Oh come on
You know that shit won't work on me

Madam Eula
I didn't expect the MV and their album would blew up like this
Have you talk with jarvis?

Kayla Stupid Bitch
We've talked

Madam Eula
And?
Kayla I'm getting worried with your short replies

Kayla Stupid Bitch
He waited for me the whole afternoon at my condo building
I honestly hoped he didn't
He looks tired and needed sleep

Kayla Stupid Bitch
I invited him inside and we've talked about things
He kept saying sorry
He said that the management wanted him to ride the hype
Specially with the unprecedented attention because of the MV
They said it's good for his career and the band

Madam Eula
And?

Kayla Stupid Bitch
He's thinking of refusing things
There were things he's supposed to do following the release of the MV but he didn't
He refused interviews and didn't post the photos with ashley even if he's supposed to

Madam Eula
Kayla
I know what you're feeling right now
Your guilt is making you miserable again

Kayla Stupid Bitch
I just
Don't want him to stop doing things because of me
This is all good
The band is receiving the love they deserve and I'm happy for them
I'm happy for jarvis
But I'm hurting too and I don't know what to do

Madam Eula
Kayla

Kayla Stupid Bitch
Jarvis is a good guy
He's the best guy I've met since all the fuck up encounters I've had in my life
But that's also the scary thing eula
He understands me enough to know how hurt and scared I am
And he's willing to stop everything to stop hurting me

Kayla Stupid Bitch
But I don't want him to stop doing what he loves
Why am I so fucked up?
If only this fucking mind works normally maybe I won't be too hurt
Maybe I would understand better
Maybe I could be stronger to take this and be with him

Kayla Stupid Bitch
But eula I'm not
As much as I love him
I couldn't handle the loud, the noise
All I want is a quite corner eula
Where I could be at peace with myself

Madam Eula
I know
You grew up afraid and to be calm and at peace is all you've wanted
And jarvis' world isn't like that

Madam Eula
So what are your plans?

Kayla Stupid Bitch
I don't know eula
All I want is for jarvis to do what's best for the band and not worry about me
I could do this right?
I could endure a little more for jarvis

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