Ambitions of A Thug(The Game Story)

Thuggin Love

(Sasha in the media)

Jordan

~~~~three weeks ago~~~~

"So you really gone leave me for that clown ass nigga. And then you talking about me cheating when you been out here do your dirt too. Just never got caught" I semi-yelled taking a sip from the bottle

"OMG! Stop trying to act like he is the reason where getting a divorce. This relationship ended a year ago when I caught you in bed twice with two different women. And then you lied about where you was several times" she said

Last year was really rough cause I lost my uncle and brother to the streets. They got caught up in some bullshit with the Colombians. They were both beaten and shot to death. Korrine was always gone for filming. I sat on the bed just chugging down the liquor.

"My head was fucked up Korrine I needed you but instead you was worried about your movie. I needed you here" I said walking back and forth

She just stood there with these sad eyes. She knew I was right. If she was here to comfort me and be my wife. I wouldn't have went to the bar or club and brought someone home. She was gone both times and always came home at the most random times and caught me in bed with random girls. I mean it doesn't excuse my adulterous behavior but I needed her here. She missed both funerals and never once called to make sure I was straight.

"The first time I understood why but the second tho what was the reason. You knew I was in this industry before you married me. I went through some shit alone too Jordan. Remember how you isolated me out and blamed me losing our daughter on me. I dealt with that guilt by myself. Instead you chose to go do God knows what" she said

Two and half years ago Korrine was pregnant and she had a miscarriage. The doctors already told us that the pregnancy was going to be a risky one. But we were ready to have a baby so bad that we didn't care what the outcome was. But we really wasn't as ready as we thought. I got into a really dark place then. I was drinking bad and wasn't come home most night. I was so busy caught up in my feelings that I didn't acknowledge hers. I didn't comfort her and instead I blamed her. I had said some hurtful things that were like salt on a wound. In reality we should have just been there for each other.

"I'm sorry Korrine, I never meant for you to go through that alone. I was in a dark place that I had to get myself out of. You was always gone so I needed someone to keep me company or to distract me from all the pain that I was feeling. I literally lost my daughter and then my uncle and brother. That was literally my whole world. I was so caught up in my own emotions that I didn't think to ask about how you were feeling. But I felt like I shouldn't have had to say anything. I felt like you should have just comfort me without saying anything."

She just sat there with tear filled eyes. I can't believe it took us to go through a divorce to actually have a talk about our relationship. We both did our own dirt and we kept so much bottled up. We haven't had deep conversation about our feelings in a while. I hate that are relationship is so damaged. I been trying to blame her when I was the one who pushed her away first.

"Jordan why couldn't you say all of those things then. Instead you blamed me when you knew from the start that this was going to be a high risk pregnancy. Just like you need me to comfort you I needed the same thing. I needed to hear positive things instead you were negative and through it all in my face that my ovaries were not healthy. You was so verbally abusive, and you said some things that ion think I can ever forgive you for saying. I sat in my room and cried for days and nights trying to figure out where I went wrong. Or why God gave me fucked up ovaries. I didn't cheat or talking to anyone else for that matter" she said