And if you die, I wanna die with you

12. A tough day

(Btw y/b/n is your brothers name and if you don't have one then you can just make up a name)

I woke up to see Tom sadly staring at my bandaged arm.

I quickly pulled my arm into the covers so he can snap out of it.

He then kissed my forehead and helped me get to the shower.

I was trying to brace myself today. 

Today was my brothers funeral.

I brushed my teeth before heading into the shower. 

I took a good relaxing shower, then after showering I dried myself then wrapped myself in my towel and just stood in place staring at the dress I was gonna wear at his funeral.

I didn't want to do anything I couldn't accept that my other half was no longer in this world.

I miss him so much and feel like shit for not being able to see him one last time..

I sat on the floor and pulled my legs up to cover my face which I buried into my legs wishing this was just a nightmare and I was gonna wake up soon.

I then heard the bathroom door open.

I slowly peeked my head out of my legs to see Tom staring down at me.

He then helped me up and full on dressed me he even brushed my hair and put it in a bun.

He gently wiped my teary eyes and made sure I ate half of the meal he cooked for me (He ate the rest)

After that it was finally time  to go to the cemetery.

As we got there we saw what looked like a million fans and news reporters there.

I started to get nervous but Tom quickly caught on and held my hand while walking to my family and my band also bill and the G's were there too.

At least my favorite people were here but my main one is dead..

I sat right in front of the black casket.

(The song I'm thinking of rn while writing this:

My parents sat behind me and Tom and I could here my moms sobbings.

I started to dig my fingernails into my palms while watching his friends and our family go up and speak about their moments with him.

Everyone knew me and him were infinity percent close no one had a closer bond than us.

And now that was gone.

It was my turn to go up and speak about him.

I gulped nervously and started to shake slightly before getting up and going by his casket.

Before saying anything the news reporters and the fans who were recording started to get loud and disrespecting the funeral.

You: With all due respect all of you guys need to leave immediately. This is only for family and friends!

I said at the reporters and fans with a slightly
Angry voice.

Security quickly kicked them out of the property and now I had to say my speech.

I look at my phone looking at the paragraph I wrote for this part of the funeral.

I sighed and gulped before starting to speak.

You: y/b/n was a extremely kind hearted brave and strong soul, any room he walked in to he immediately brightened it, he was so smart and just too pure hearted to leave.

I said starting to cry.

You: y/b/n will always and forever be my other half our bond was and still is Unbreakable.

I finally stopped talking biting my lip trying not to completely start sobbing but failed as I turned to look at his casket and put my hand on it.

Tom gently grabbed me by the waist pulling me away from his casket as the person was gently putting him in the ground.

I was officially sobbing as hard as I could trying to get back to his casket but Tom was too strong.

You: I can't live without him Tom..

I said burying my head into his neck while Tom held me close feeling sad to see me sad.

Tom: Yes you will because he would want you, he wants you to live and be happy I know it.

Tom gently whispered into my ear.

In the car me and tom were in the backseat cuddling as tom was trying to calm down my crying and eventually did.

All of the heart ache and crying made me extremely exhausted and soon enough I was out cold in toms arms with red puffy cheeks from crying and a red nose from sniffling.

I felt someone holding me and walking somewhere.

I opened my eyes to see that I was in my parents house and tom gently put me on the couch to rest.

I couldn't help but start looking at the baby pictures of me and my brother knowing he is 6ft underground now.

I felt so weak and worthless.

Tom tried forcing me to eat but I declined and just locked myself in my brothers old room.

I laid on his bed as I cuddled with his favorite stuff animal he was obsessed with when he was a kid.

I took off my shoes and jewelry before closing my eyes drifting off to sleep peacefully.

Toms pov

After y/n locked herself in y/b/n room I couldn't help but feel worthless I have no idea how im gonna help her I can't even help myself.

But anything for her, I put her through so much and now her brother is dead.

I feel so bad for her I don't even want to imagine if bill died.

It was getting really late and dark but y/ns parents said I can sleep in their guest room so I agreed just in case if y/n needed me I will be a second away.

I settled in to the room and took my shoes off before going in the bed and texting y/n to see if she was ok.

Tom:

Hey y/n your mom said I can sleep
In the guest room and I agreed just incase if you needed me I will be right here, I love you so much and I will always be on and by your side no matter what.
Good night my love❤️.

I turned off my phone and put it to charge then quickly fell asleep after.

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