I talk with Jane on the phone tonight. She's my best friend and she can tell by my voice that I am not happy. "What's wrong Sarah? It's not like you. You're always so upbeat. What's going on?"
"I don't know. I feel homesick I guess. I don't know what it is. I feel depressed. I've never felt depressed before but I can only imagine that this is what depression feels like."
Jane says "I know what's wrong Sarah. You've been addicted to the most dangerous substance of all; it's called adrenalin."
My life has been running me here and there in constant motion. ForEver! My mind has been in constant thinking-mode, "DO"ing-mode every hour of every day of the week. For my whole life. Jane may be right about this.
"You're in the mountains to decompress. I think it's God's plan for you." she says "You're reprogramming yourself. You'll be okay."
Later I research adrenalin and addiction on the internet. I learn of how many of us are wearing ourselves out. We don't know how to relax, living off our adrenalin! Adrenalin is designed for back-up, not for normal living. Wow, there are so many Type-A personalities in the world!
I think most of them live in New York City... and one of them now lives up here in the boondocks.
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