#3
Naglakad lakad kami ni Sister Ana sa labas ng bahay ampunan. I met sister Ana when I lose my family. She is one of the person who encourages me to continue living. And I am very much thankful to her. It was five years ago. Sister Ana is a half español and half Filipino.
She was an dual citizen but she decided to stay here in Bulacan to help those children's without homes. This bahay ampunan becomes my homes since then.
Sister Ana becomes my mother figure. She's so beautiful despite of her ages. Kulubot na ang mga balat niya ngunit bakas parin ang gandang meron siya. She has a soft and innocent smile, that sometimes I think I don't deserve her affection and care for me.
Umupo kami sa duyan na bakal. I swing it slightly while looking at the skies. This makes my heart calm.
"Napapansin kong dumadalang na ang pagdalaw mo dito anak.." sister Ana ask. Napatingin ako sa kanya at marahang ngumiti.
Because it was true. Dumadalang na akong pumunta dito dahil sa takot na baka tutuhanin ni tanda ang balak niya. I just can't risk them--all of them. I was thinking that maybe I should try to find a new place for them, but the problem is Sister Ana wouldn't allowed it.
Bumuntong hininga ako at tumingala sa kalangitan. "Well, busy lang po sa trabaho Sister Ana. Pero huwag po kayong mag alala. Gagawin ko po ang lahat para makadalaw sa inyo palagi..."
I heard her innocent chuckle."You know that, you don't have to. If you are busy then be it. If you have a free time then be here. Simple as that anak."
"Thank you for understanding me po. I-i just hoped that I can tell you everything right now tho.."
"You can. I would always listened to you without you being judged.."
"I know, Sister Ana. Thank you." I genuinely said.
Marami kaming napag-kwentuhan ni Sister Ana, bago kami bumalik sa loob ng bahay ampunan. Nahagip ng mata ko ang isang sports car na nasa parking lot ng ampunan. It looks familiar, but I know marami na ang nagmamay-ari ng ganoong sasakyan sa panahon ngayon. I shrugged it of.
Papasok pala kami sa loob naririnig ko na ang tawanan ng mga bata. I can't help but to smile. Hearing thier laughter makes my heart happy and flutter with so much joy. And I do believe that people--human can be happy without money. Just simple things would do. You just have to see, every little things that would make you happy.
But, happiness depends on yourself. If you choose to be happy then you would. If choose not to, then you can't. If you choose to do bad things like I do? Then I can. If you don't ? Then you don't have to.
Everything depends on your decision. Your life depends on you too. There is no such thing called bahala na ang tadhana. Because you--yourself is the one who made your own tadhana. No one can dictate your life but you. Only you.
Habang papalapit kami sa mga bata na nasa dining area. Palakas ng palakas ang tawanan at hagikhikan ang naririnig ko. Ano kaya ang pinag-uusapan ng mga batang ito' at tuwang tuwa.
"He, must be here." Napalingon ako kay Sister Ana na nakangiting lumingon sa akin.
"He?" Kunot noong ani ko.
"Oo, anak. Hindi mo pa pala siya nakilala ano? Siya iyong kinekwento ko sayo noon pa. Natatandaan mo ba? Gusto sana kitang ipakilala sa kanya noon pa, kaya nga lang e, palagi ka namang busy. Mabuti na lang at napasyahan mong dumalaw dito.."
Tumango ako sa kanya.
Nabungaran ko ang mga batang masayang tumatawa. Unang nakita ko ay si Idang at boboy sa may buka ng dining area. Pero bakit ganun? Bakit ang bilis ata ng tibok ng puso ko.
