Dil e naadan #MissionDesi

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Zahra's dress at the side

Zahra's POV:-

"Better if you leave soon"

The words affected me more than I thought. He doesn't want me in his life,he doesn't love me.

I wiped off the tear that escaped my waterline. Bringing my knees upto my chest I rested my chin on it wrapping my hands around them.

My thoughts wandered back to the day when my parents told me about this.

"Zahra..." My mom called as she peeked in slightly through the door.

I sat up straight and smiled "Yep mom"

She came and sat beside me on the bed. I could sense something wrong there as she and dad never talked to me so.......politely ??

They are always cursing,abusing and hurting me. Aaj ye sooraj kaha se nikla.

She took in a breath and I stared at her confused. Something is really wrong...my mind warned me.

"You are getting married." She said. It took me sometime to process it and I widened my eyes as realization hit me.

"What?!! Mumma you can't be serious right?" I asked as panic strikes me.

"I'm serious. You are getting married next week.And I am not here to ask for your approval,I came to inform you" She said with a straight face with almost no emotions.

"But why? You can't do this to me mumma. Dad! I'll talk to dad" I said and got off the bed when she pulled me back with a jerk.

"It's your Dad's decision. We can't spend our money on you anymore now. So it'll be better if you leave soon" She said and walked out slamming the door shut.

I just stared at her retreating figure and warmness over my cheek brought me back.

Dad bhi? Kyun. Maine aisa konsa gunah kiya tha ya Khuda jo mujhe na maa ka pyaar naseeb hua na apne baap ka saaya sar par hai.

Maa ko to apne pass bula liya aapne saath mei mere jannat ke zariya bhi le liya. Dusri Maa hai par jo mohabbat jo pyaar jo fikar meri Maa karti thi wo nahi hai.

Uske jaga sirf nafrat,ghum,takleef aur zillat di hai unhone. Maa kehti to hu unhe maanti bhi hu par unke liye mai sirf unki souteli beti hu.

Par apne baap ki to sagi beti hu mai. Kehte hai beti baap ki jaan hoti hai. Ek baap apni beti ki ek muskurahat ke liye har qurbaani dene ko tayyar hota hai. Apni beti ke aankh se gira ek aansu unhe bardaash nai hota. Baap ka saaya beti ke aakhri saas tak hota hai.

Kya mere papa ko takleef nai hoti Mujhe rota,dard se tadapta hua dekh kar. Kya mai sirf ek bojh hu un par? Kya wo nahi chahte mere chehre pe ek halki si bhi muskaan aaye.KYA MAI APNE BAAP KE LIYE ITNI BADI ZEHMAT HU?

I cried my heart out as the thoughts surrounded my mind.

Allah always plans what is best for us. Maybe this marriage will prove as a turning point in my life. Who knows that happiness will make its way to my life and I'll be able to feel the love care and affection that I've been craving for.

I shut my eyes as memories flashed. This marriage did prove a turning point in my life.

The hope which I had for my life to be filled with happiness and being loved were crushed.

Ammi,Abbu,Hussain and Maha do make me feel loved but what about the love of Shehryaar. The love of my husband.

They say when you get married your husband fills in the voids. But in my case my husband crushed the hope of me being completed by my husband.