Everything I Am

He Messed Up

Ryker was walking through the university's court yard alone, she had no idea where the hell Dean was

"Ryker!" she heard and turned around to see Roman waving to her, she bit her lip and shook her head as he began walking up to her

"Hey, uh, can we talk?" He asked when he finally stood in front of her

"What's there to talk about?" She asked as she began to walk off

"I wanna explain what happened," he said, following her

"Explain what? How you used me?" She asked, bitter tone in her voice

"Now hold up a minute, I never used you," he said and she turned to him suddenly

"You knew I liked you, you knew you had a girlfriend, yet you still went out with me," she said, trying not to cry

"As friends Ryker, nothing more," he told her and she smiled bitterly

"Friends? No Roman, we're not friends," she told him

She looked him up and down and shook her head, smiling ruefully

"Friends don't kiss me like you do," she finished

"I never meant to hurt you Ryker," he told her

"Yeah well, I never meant to fall in love with you, but here we are," she said and Roman was shocked silent at her confession, she had fallen in love with him? At his silence, she shook her head

"Bye Roman," she said and continued on her way.

Roman couldn't believe it. He was the nicest person, he put everyone else above himself and he hurt Ryker. He hurt her bad, he didn't like that, he didn't like hurting her

Ryker got in the room and slammed the door, leaning against it while the tears streamed down her face

"I hate you," she cried, flinging her jacket on the couch and running both hands through her hair

She watched the pack of Dean's cigarettes on the counter and she gritted her teeth. She hadn't smoked since she had set her sights on Roman

She had stopped smoking, drinking and partying, she stopped bringing random guys home, she didn't want anyone else but Roman. She had been trying to be better for him.

She grabbed the pack and the lighter and lit one up, going into her bedroom and throwing the skimpiest dress she owned on the bed, then she went to Dean's room and got some clothes out for him. She went back into the living room and pulled out a bottle of Jack that she and Dean hid under the sofa and opened it, taking a swig

Tonight, she was gonna drink, smoke, go to a party and get a guy to spend a good night with, because why not? As far as she was concerned, to hell with Roman Reigns

Roman had been walking through the corridor toward his own room when Ryker's door opened and Roman quickly hid behind the corner and peeked out

"Thanks for the awesome night," Ted Dibiase said as he finished buckling his pants in front the door

"Should be thanking you," she replied to boost his ego

"We should do this again sometime," he told her

"Yeah," she agreed, doubt it sweetie

Ted leaned forward to kiss her and she immediately kissed back, pushing her tongue into his mouth, he squeezed her ass as they kissed

They pulled away and Roman bit his lip, as they panted, Ted pecked her lips once more

"Bye Ryker," he said and she smiled

"Bye Ted," she replied, and he left and she raked a hand through her hair and closed the door

She took her phone and dialled a number she was familiar with and she waited

"Hey Dean, where are you?" She asked when he answered

"Uh, at Layla's, why?" He asked in his groggy, hungover, sleepy voice

"Just wondering, will you be home soon?" She asked, rubbing her hand over her forehead

"I'm getting dressed now, I'll be home in 5," he said and she sighed

"You okay?" He asked and she nodded

"Yeah I'm good," she replied

She sat down on the bed and put her hands on her face. Ted had been in the throes of pleasure and Ryker had called Roman's name and she knew Ted hadn't heard her, but it made her hate Roman even more for taking that part of her brain, she couldn't even enjoy sex anymore without thinking about him. That pissed her off, the fact that she was still attracted to him, after all that.

She looked up as Dean walked into the room and she got up to hug him, he grunted as she basically tackled him into the hug

"Wanna go for breakfast?" She asked hopefully and Dean gave her a look

"Sure, let me shower and we'll go," he told her and she nodded and let him pass to go into his room

She sighed and sat down, shaking her head and blowing out a puff of air

Roman was distraught, she was with Ted last night. He had no reason to be hurt or jealous, but he was. Alot.

He wiped his glasses and sat up, the memory that was haunting him though, was seeing her look so hurt and broken when she saw Galina and him together, the look on her face when he told her that he and her were just friends, seeing her with Randy then Ted. God, he messed up.