//this one's for us a-spec folks//
I'm tired of diagnosing my feelings for you.
A crush, a squish, a mesh
Sexual, romantic, alterous, platonic
Hugs, kisses, touches, conversations -
I'm tired of ticking boxes,
Answering the follow-up questions, and
Making Venn diagrams
To figure out what I feel for you.I wonder why others have it so easy.
Their "I like you"s answer a gazillion questions
While mine only create questions, expectations, confusion, gigantic miscommunications.I love you, is that not enough?
It doesn't have a name,
I don't want to look for a name.I love you, it's never enough.
I want to shout out my affections like the rest of the world does,
But I don't know what to call you, my love -
We have long transcended nouns and adjectives,I think the problem is, love,
We need a new language.I will call you by your name, then.
And you will know exactly what I feel.
Just your name - and no questions, expectations, confusion and miscommunications,
Just your name - you're not my crush, my squish, my mesh,
You're you, and I love you...
Your being, your existence, your mind, your smiles, your words, your warmth,
You, your name...Let's do this one day, shall we?
How long does it take to create a language anyway?
I'll wait - I'm willing; because
Just once,I want to love,
Without having to "diagnose" these damned feelings.
YOU ARE READING
Ellipsis || Poetry ✓
Poetrypoems written during lockdown '20 - '21 //featured by Wattpad Poetry// //featured by Stories Undiscovered// ~~ cover by @pixie-smear