His Doctor Psycho(complete ✔)

C h a p t e r ²

Tangled up in problems of life and living in twisted way is a weird way to live by humans In search of life, We nearing death day by day .some has little pain ,some has more , some of us cope of with pain silently and some of us cope up with it aggressively .
But one thing is for sure , everyone is suffering . Everyone is hustling, everyone is dying hundreds of death before death daily .I have my own problems,my own hell ,and my own way to cope up with it

I moan in pain as pressed my forehead and lightly rub it against wall banging it lightly time to time   , it was a way for me to calm down my wild thoughts and stormy emotions .

I again had a drink and sleep at the mart last night it's getting embracing .
Why I have to this way ,why my life has to be like this ,?? Why I always have to put extra efforts in everything still I can't achieve them where as other people don't even put efforts and got everything ?

I feel like a robot , waking up doing same shit ,I didn't took psychology for this . I didn't took this Subject to make it my cage .it supposed to heal people but why It is constantly giving me wounds ??

I frustratedly threw the file I was gripping in my hand across the floor and groan  rubbing and banging my head little harder as I scream in frustration

It's one thing to feel negative emotions and it's another thing to control them ,because people expect that you should control them , to live to expectations of human Is really tough ,it's like eating the food someone else choose for you for the rest of your life

Just because I am psychologist, it doesn't make me immune to pain , the pain which arouses in heart and burn my body from inside , it hurt so much like my own heart is eating me alive from inside , even with that pain I have to smile , I have to smile and show no negative emotions because I am a goddamn psychologist and I should be perfectly mentally fine .

As I said everyone is in hell , this makes no expectations for psychologist , we are also human , I am also human I also have my issue which no one is ready to solve , spending whole day asking People', how are you ' is frustrating because no one ask me that , when I come home tired as hell , so tired that I can't even cook and sleep empty stomach ,no one ask me how I am

And when these rich spoiled brats come to my clinic , showing how big of a mental. Pressure they have because there parents sending them to paris instead of London

It Gets on my nerve , I just want to choke them to death right there , but hey , I am psychologist , I should have empathy.  I should understand things from there perspective, maybe watching big Ben is more fun then watching a metal structure, what we call it ?? Oh Eiffel. fucking .tower , yeah it must be depressing

I also never wanted to shift Spain but here I am all way from America, running away from everything

"You can't just keep banging your head in corner"  a voice came , I slowly removed my head from wall , and looking towards the source of sound ,

"Now pick up the file and go to your cabin ", my senior Dr.Richard said  , the file , the stupid file , a file of bio data of another rich spoil brat , who literally would have no issues

"Why I keep getting assigned to these kind of patients" I said crossing my arms on my chest "because you know ,how to help them " he said calmly , his brown hairs was neatly covering his forehead , as his sky blue eyes was cold , his face was pale white with no beard , a long neck, perfect jawline and full lips , he was fairly attractive human , I would definitely try on him if he don't assigned me to most stupid patients and make my already boring life more boring

It was frustrating , doing so much hard-working and still work as a rookie just because you are young and people have perspective that young people can't be your therapist because they are naive and don't have experience of life .they don't know one thing , life are harsh on some people, life teach them many things before they even know what life actually is , life is so harsh on some people that make them just stop living , that kind of people know a lot of things before even growing up .They learned the art of fighting with demons before even they learnt fighting for chocolate