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Chap. 24 "i can't say anything"

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*y/n pov*

Today we have to do some cute scene, i really like to do that tipe of things but not when i have pain all over my body

Like i can't even moove an arm and i feel pain ...

"Noah ? Are you listening ?" The director said, but i wasn't listening , so when i heard his voice i jumped a bit on the chair

"Woah, Is everything ok kid? "

Y-yeah...all good.." i said lowering a bit my head

"Hey, umm, can i talk to you baby ?" Lizzie said

"Mh mh.."

We went in another room

"So? Why are you so close in your Little ball ? You were so happy last time i text you, what happend ?"

I can't tell her what Is happening at home ...i can't

"Hey, it's ok if you tell me , what happend ? Did you ...? " She tried to lift up my sleeve but i stepped away from her

"N-no , it's nothing...just...i m-missed y-you..." I said playing with my fingers

"Ok...but if anything happend you tell me , i'm still your mama right ?"

"Yeah, of course " i faked a smile...again

We started doing the scene , i basically have to be happy cause Wanda told me i can live with her ...ahahah...like a fucking joke right ?

*Acting*

Wanda: ok, i just need to ask Stark, i'll be right back , stay here with Nat

Wanda said caressing y/n's cheeck

Y/n: ok ..but ..you came back ?
Y/n asked with tears in his eyes

Lizzie looked at y/n concerned, cause he wasn't supposed to cry

Wanda: y-yeah, of course, i'll be right back

"Stop! Good job guys, hey Noah, amazing acting, we didn't thought about including you crying but , you did a good job kid" the director said

They weren't acting tears...they were real...i think that with acting i can cry and pull out everything i have inside

I wiped my tears away

"Hey ,you ok ? " Lizzie said

"Uh? Oh..yes.. don't worry" i said and quickly i went to the bathroom and locked the door

I rolled up my sleeve and i took my blade...i shouldn't..i know, but i have to , otherwhise i'll having a panick attack...so i don't want to

I stayed there for some minutes, i wrapped some bandages around my wrist and i pulled down my sleeve

"Hey noah, we were trying to found you, where were you ?" Scarlett said

"...umm bathroom..sorry"

"Hey it's ok, you don't need to be sorry..how are you doing at home ?"

Home...that place Is not 'home' !
That place Is a HELL!!!

We than started to act again

Wanda: Hey, i just talk to Tony...

Nat:and?

Y/n :..what does he said ?

Wanda:.... That you can live with me !! With us !!