This chapter is a continuation of the previous work En Arunthozhi: 6.
Disclaimer: This is a work of FICTION.
As always, there's a note at the end of this chapter.
Trigger warning : Grief, death, miscarriage
This chapter isn't proofread. Please ignore typos.
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En Arunthozhi: 7
Ashwin stared at his disappearing wife and before he could come to his senses over her declaration of hate, a call from Adi, his assistant reminded him he was needed elsewhere.
The trailer release had kept him busy the rest of the day and he was sure his movie release in another three weeks on Diwali would keep him busy for a following few weeks as well. The only thing he was quite committed to was ensuring he attended therapy at least for the next two weeks and texting his wife every day to see if she would ever talk to him.
A few hours after the trailer was released he texted her.
So? Like it? Hate it? Thoughts?
When his text was marked as seen in a few minutes but he didn't get a reply from Sivaangi, he clarified with a follow up text.
Trailer pathi kekren
When the second text was seen as well but he did not receive a reply, he was disappointed. Sure, he had expected her to act indifferently but a tiny part of him had hoped his Sivaangi would come through for him at least where his work was concerned. There was a time when she had called him her second favorite director.
After a long tiring night of work, he reached home well into the noon next day. Without even taking a moment to rest, seated on the couch, he first called Shobana like he had promised the previous day.
"Are you free now?", he asked hesitantly when his therapist answered his call.
"Yes. How are you feeling?", Shobana asked cautiously.
"Drained. Frustrated. Also excited, Konjam disappointed", Ashwin surprised himself with his rare moment of unforced honesty with his therapist.
"Care to expand?", Shobana asked him.
"Drained after the session at your office yesterday. Frustrated because I don't know how to fix any of this even though I want to fix it all. Enaku ava kooda sendhu vazhanum Shobana. But adhuku panna thappellam fix pannalum la?", Ashwin paused pondering over.
"Aen excited?", Shobana prodded him to continue.
"Padam three weeks la release. I have traveled with this story for 4 years now", Ashwin spoke with content in his heart for a few seconds before continuing "Disappointed because Ava en kooda Ippo Illa. Oru friend ah kooda. Before you say anything, I know it's all my doing, en fault".
"It takes two to tango Ashwin. I am not saying you did no wrong. But, I think rendu perume oru point la communicate pannaama, it became complicated . What do you want to do next?", Shobana questioned.
"Yesterday when I dropped her after your session, enta kovam ah I hate you nu sonnaa. A tiny part of me wishes she didn't actually mean it, kovathula thittunaa nu but a part of me wonders if I have made irreparable damage and if she truly hates me. Apologize pannanum ava kitta. Sorry sollanum. Innoru chance kekanum. Kudupaalaa nu therila but kekanum", Ashwin stopped midway lost in thoughts.
"Right. I think that's a good place to start. Owning up to your actions", Shobana spoke positively.
"Enkitta pesuvaalaa? You are still seeing her la? Avala enkitta pesa solluveenga laa?", Ashwin pleaded.
