TW. Truma?
Y/n falls asleep like, really early. I on the other hand, do not, it takes me some time, sometimes.
lately she's been tossing and turning a lot more then usual. like yeah she normally moves around and stuff, but the last like three nights she's been like doing it way more then usual.
She claimed she'd stay up tonight but when I looked over she was dead asleep. I thought it was cute, don't tell her I said that!
I was about to try and sleep too when she started mumbling something
"y/n" I whispered, softly shaking her to try and wake her up
"mmh" she mumbled "stop" she said under her breath. I wasn't sure if she was talking to me or not, not even a moment later her eyes shot open and she was breathing heavy
"hey" I said softly, she wouldn't look at me "bad dream" I asked as she slowly sat up, she nodded her head "y/n" I said concerned "are you ok"
"yeah" she gulped taking a deep breath and holding her hand on her chest "just, scared. that's all"
"it was just a dream" I said, I wanted so bad to hug and hold her in my arms but she didn't seem to want me too "do you wa-" she cut me off
"you'd, never" she said slowly "hurt me right?" she asked crossing her arms
"what" I said confused "why would I ever hurt you?"
"like if you got mad or something, you'd never like, hit me... or force ur self on me right?" she asked not looking at me
I swear I could've cried "y/n" I said "look at me, please"
she took a moment before reluctantly meeting my eyes with hers full of tears
"did someone do those things to you" I asked softly
she froze for a second before nodding her head, she looked down "yeah" she let out a shaky breath
"that explains, a lot" I said softly
"im sorry I didn't tell you" she said as she started to cry "I just didn't want you to think of me differently, I also didn't wanna be treated like a child-"
"y/n, y/n" I said "I would never think of you differently" I acknowledged
"all week" she sniffled "ive been having, these dreams, and, well, they've been about you" she said wiping her eyes
"oh" I said looking down
"and you, were doing everything that he used to do" she explained her voice shaky "and, I know, I know you wouldn't. but I never thought he would either." she said
"y/n I know my sorry doesn't mean much" I said softly "but I am sorry"
"no it means a lot" she said, she moved closer to me and I wrapped my arms around her "im sorry I didnt tell you" she said again
"dont be" I said rubbing her back "it's hard. I get it"
"thank you" she mumbled kissing my cheek and then resting her head back on my chest
she quickly fell asleep, I stayed awake to make sure she stayed asleep. and she did. and for the first time in four days she slept soundly
a/n
I dunno what to write lmao
