the twilight lullabies [poetry]

poem #5: i hate to feel

it's normal to feel something,
for i am a human being,
but why do i hate to feel anything?
i hate the way i feel.

if i can rip my chest out,
grab my heart inside it,
and throw it away,
i will fucking do that,

what i feel inside my heart,
were going through my head,
i can feel everything all at once,
it made me feel sick.

curling down the floor,
my arms wrapped around my chest,
butterflies in my stomach,
i puked it with blood.

if being in pain,
is what makes you feel alive,
then i guess,
just let me be dead.