Chapter Nineteen
Anna’s POV
I make it to my car before I burst into tears. I told that asshole that I fucking love him and he tells me to get the fuck out? What the hell? I have always known Eric didn’t give a damn about me, even before he went into the coma, and now this? Is this asshole trying to fucking break me? I cannot take this shit anymore. I cannot stand being hurt and broken by Eric time and time again. I cannot stand it.
I wipe under my eyes, drying up my tears. I am not going to cry over that dick. I will not let him win. Whether or not he is trying to hurt me, I refuse to let him know he is. He obviously doesn’t care about me, so why should I continue to let myself get hurt by him? That makes me the fucking weak woman that tries to cling to something that is not there. I will not be her, not anymore.
I want to talk to someone, but I don’t know who. Melissa is out with Ethan and Mom and Dad are at work. My fingers scroll through my contacts, somehow landing on Claire’s number. I tap “call number” and listen to it ring. I want to scream when she does not pick up. My best friend isn’t answering her phone when I need her the most.
I cannot help the emotions that bubble up when her answering machine hits.
“Claire.” I sob. “I need to talk to you. I can’t deal with Eric anymore and I don’t know what to do. I need to talk to you.” I hang up and move my fingers under my eyes, sweeping away the fresh tears.
I want her to call me back. Claire and I have talked each other through so many break ups, whether we were peeved off at the guy or in love with them. I thought I’d been in love with one of my last boyfriends, but God was I wrong. If that was love, that what can you call this electric desire to be near here, to talk to him, to fucking see him, much less touch him. How could I have been in love before when love does not even define the raw emotion I have for Eric.
God damn it, Anna, get your head out of the fucking gutter. You do not give a damn for Eric anymore. He is an asshole, end of story. I do not need to waste my time on someone who does not care for me. I am better than that. I am stronger than that.
I decide to do what any logical woman would do and got myself ice cream and a movie. Fuck guys, fuck friends, fuck family; all I need is a good movie and a carton of ice cream to get myself through this.
I stare blankly at the TV screen for half an hour, spooning mounds of ice cream into my mouth every so often before I realize that this isn’t fucking helping. As much as my mind wants to disagree, I need to see Eric. I need him because I love him. I hate feeling like a fucking doormat, but God damn it; I need him like I need air to breathe. I need him like I need food to eat and water to drink. I need him to live because I love him more than life itself.
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General FictionAnnabelle first met Eric at his party. She first kissed him during a game at the party. Now? She owes him. Melissa is Anna's little sister, hurt and broken from her boyfriend's betrayal. When Melissa refuses to give "it" up he gets mad. Breaking up...