Living with Mr. Bad Boy

Chapter 39

" I had a brother. An older one. He would be 23 now." Had. That's what had first caught me off guard. He used had and would  which kind of scares me about what he is going to say.

" We were attached at the hip. Everything he did I did. Everyone knew who he was. The Spencer Williamson who partied all night long and hooked up with every hot girl out there. " This sounds familiar. Oh wait this sounds exactly like Jaxon! Why am I not surprised that he learned this from his brother.

" Don't give me that look Sunshine. " I chuckled a little and his lips played a handsome smiled. " Anyways back to my story. " I smiled again because of the  interruption. " It's funny that I wasn't like that at all before he died. I used to not fuck around but when he passed It got to me so fucking hard I didn't know what to do. I thought no one cared because it was an overdose. So when my mom got pregnant with Emmy a couple years later, I was beyond pissed. I went and stayed with this chick I knew. That was the first time for you know." I scoffed. Horrible time but I did it anyways.

Of course his first time sleeping with a girl is because his mother was pregnant. Did he not realize that he could have gotten that girl pregnant and then he would have had a whole different situation on his hands?

" Ok you have your thinking face on. What's going on in that brain of yours?" He chuckled and his baby blues met my dull brown ones.

" Nothing just continue. " He raised a questioning brow and I motioned for him to go on.

" Ok well I reacted stupidly. And thus the start of the Jaxon Williamson you now know. "

I felt bad for him. He was good before his brother died. Then his entire life turned upside because his brother overdosed.

I scooted over on my bed and left a space beside me for him to lay down with me. I patted the spot with my non- IV hand and he smiled. He climbed beside me and wrapped one of his arms under my waist then pulled me to his chest, inhaling deeply and closing his eyes. I smiled at the feeling of his body next to mine and how they are a perfect fit.

" Are you okay now?" My voice was barely above a whisper when I asked.

I felt him smile into the crook of my neck.

" Never better."

The sound of voices woke me from a sleep I didn't know I had fallen into. My eyes were droopy but I managed to open them. I still felt Jaxon's muscled arm draped over my waist and his head on my pillow, right above my head. I looked around the room and saw a couple doctors looking at my chart and my monitor. I tired to sit u but Jax just groaned and I had to stifle a laugh. Big sleepy head. I finally managed to nudge him awake. He woke with a startle and looked around then down at me.

" Is everything okay? " Jax's voice was still hoarse form sleep but God it sounded really sexy. The doctors looked up form their clipboards and realized that we were awake. One of the doctors leaned in to talk to another and I couldn't help but question what the hell was going on. The doctor looked at Jax and asked him to please step out of the room with him.

What the hell?

Before I could say much more Jax slid of the bed, giving me a chaste kiss on the lips. The doctor closed the sliding glass doors behind him. Goosebumps littered my skin and I the hairs on the back of my neck.

" Miss?" I looked to my side and saw a blonde haired nurse. She had green eyes and a sweet smile. She didn't look worried but relaxed. Maybe that's just part of her job.

" There is nothing to worry about. I promise." I nodded and looked at the door. The doctor was talking and Jax glanced at me before looking away quickly. Finally Jaxon nodded and walked back into the room.

" What was that about? " Jax came over to the bed and pulled me into his chest.

" They said you can leave within the week. Your blood pressure is good and you aren't having any problems with your chest. " I scrunched my brows in confusion. This is happy news, why isn't he happy? I sat up a little and placed a hand on his cheek. He looked at me with distressed eyes.

" What's the matter Jax?" He looked down at our now intertwined hands and swallowed hard.

" After you were shot, before I came, Harold left the library and had moved on down to the cafeteria. " I could feel my breath quickening. Please tell me he isn't going to say what I think he is going to say.

" D-Don't say it." My voice cracked. I didn't want to know.

But I need to know.

" He killed 3 people then he killed himself." I could feel the tears form in my eyes. I sat behind him for a year! I had talked to him and worked on projects with him. I made jokes with him and we laughed! HE was teachers pet and a genius! Why did he do this? Why did he kill himself and hurt and kill all these people?

Why?

I didn't realize I was crying until Jax brought his hands up to cup my face. He caressed my tinted cheeks and wiped away my salty tears.

" It's not your fault baby" I choked back a sob.

" How did I not notice he was not okay?" I didn't want to cry. I wanted to be okay but this wasn't okay.

" Sometimes the new look at people we only see the okay's and the I'm fines. Sometimes people are really good at hiding what they truly feel." And he was right. I was really good hiding what I really felt. I had a mask and I had it up so much I almost believed that everything was okay. But I knew it wasn't and I had Jaxon to help me. Harold didn't have anyone.

He was all alone and I can't help but feel guilty for that.