Kentrell Desean Gaulden
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I laid on the bed holding Ashiah as she cried nonstop. She found out her grandma died two days ago and ever since then she been crying
She won't do nothing and she skip school for two days straight
"Can you please eat?" I asked looking down at her before she slowly shook her head 'no' "bae you gotta eat, for real. You can't sit in here and not eat"
"Kentrell I don't care" she said wiping her face
Her whole face was red along with her eyes. Her eyes was puffy and I know her cheeks hurt
I sighed and shook my head, I feel her pain cause I don't been through it. I still catch myself at times wishing my grandma was here
When my grandma died I lost myself , and I hope Poota don't do that. Ima make sure she straight cause I don't want her to be like me
Losing yourself come with a whole bunch of depression, smoking, suicidal thoughts, and some other shit.
Depression ain't nothing to joke about and it'll make angry with the whole world. I be mad sometimes and don't even know why
My grandma was the one who took care of me, she was my momma
Poota and her grandma had a close bond. They was literally like best friends, and they never had problems
"yes you do, I know how you feel but you gotta eat. Please, fa' me" it was silent for a few seconds before she answered
"I don't want to much, but I want a little bit of noodles. I feel sick to the bottom of my stomach" she sat up and looked at me
I feel bad and I'm heartbroken from seeing her like this
"you want some water?" she nodded before I got up and she laid down
I left out the room and went to the kitchen grabbing a water bottle. I went back in the room and gave it to her before leaving back out
I pulled a pack of noodles out before crushing it, I got a bowl and poured them in. I put water in the bowl and warmed it up
After taking it out the microwave I put some seasoning in it before grabbing a fork. I walked back to the room and gave it to her
"Just eat what you can, you ain't gotta eat all of it" I said handing it to her and she nodded "you good?"
She nodded slowly before I sighed. I got in the bed beside her and laid down wrapping my arms around her waist
A few minutes later she was done and she handed me the bowl. I sat it on the nightstand and we both laid down going to sleep
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Next Day...
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"Just do the work tonight and go to school tomorrow so you can turn it in. You ain't gotta stay, but at least turn it in"
I looked at Poota as she flipped through the assignments she had to do. She still ain't tryna go to school and I don't blame her
A tear rolled down her face and she shook her head
"I can't do none of this, I can't. Fuck this shit, I give up and I ain't going back to school" she said and I shook my head 'no'
"Hell no, you not dropping out you almost done. You almost done bae, you can't let that shit go now. Especially cause you worked to fucking hard"
I don't give a fuck about school, but I care bout Ashiah graduating. Im not finna let her quit on herself
"No I'm serious" she said
"No you ain't, so I just need you to do these assignments. I know this shit hard on you right now, but you gotta push through"
It took a minute for me to talk her into doing her work, but I eventually got her to do it
"you good cause I gotta go?" I Asked making sure she was okay
she nodded before hugging and kissing me
"I love you"
"I love you too" I said before leaving out her room and making my way downstairs. I left out and got in my car pulling off
I pulled up to the studio before grabbing my notepad from the passenger seat. I got out and walked in seeing Montana and the gang
"you look tired dude" Montana said and I shrugged
"Shi straight?" babyjoe and I shook my head 'yeah'
"Damn bruh, I feel bad for her for real. I ain't never seen her like that" Ben said, I wasn't paying attention to them
Instead of listening I just walked in the booth and sat on the stool and got on my phone
A few minutes later my producer walked in and started getting everything ready
"you ready?" he asked before I nodded placing my headphones on
This living stuff is really ass
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