i loved you ▶ minjoon #WATTYS2019

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「because i want to forget you but i can't」

"so, i was at the hospital like a week ago." namjoon hears jimin say through the phone "what? what happened?" namjoon asks, there was a pause on the other side of the line 

"wait, beomgyu is calling for me, just a second." jimin excuses himself giving namjoon the time to look down at seokjin who was on his knees, palming namjoon through his jeans with a sweet smile on his face "baby, why do you have to do that when i'm on the phone with jimin?" he puts a finger on the omega's chin 

"because i can." he whispers now getting on to namjoon's lap and unbuttoning his shirt to expose his broad chest "what's he whining about this time?" he asked in a hushed voice just in case the omega gets back on the phone 

"he's feeling under the weather and asking when do i come home." namjoon replies, moaning at how seokjin's lips feel so good against his skin "okay, sorry, he's getting ready for school and he's a little nervous, clingier than usual." jimin informs while namjoon closed his eyes in pure ecstasy as seokjin had his way with namjoon 

"isn't he always clingy." namjoon groans, running his fingers through the omega's hair "he is but this time it's more than usual, like, he's scared that i might go away or something, this is something i need to talk to you about, so, when do you get home?" jimin asks, he had been pestering the alpha as to when he gets home and namjoon just piles up all the lies. 

lie after lie after lie but he got to the point that he had been so good at it, it's been months of going behind jimin's back that he's gotten so good at lying.

"you know what, i'll be home in a day or two." he huffs out and he hears a faint "oh" on the other side of the line "i'm sorry for being a bother, i'm just getting concerned, so yeah.. i'll see you soon i guess, i love you." jimin's voice became more faint as he finished his sentence 

"yeah, love you too." seokjin rolls his eyes at this, taking namjoon's phone in his hand and ending the call "more for me." seokjin mumbles before capturing namjoon's lips in between his.

the two have been in saipan for almost 3 weeks when their tryst was only supposed to be 2 weeks but they were so caught up with each other that they didn't notice the days dwindling down, they've done everything "date-like" going out to dinner almost every single night, going out to dancing, soaking up some sun on the beautiful beach and even at night having a bonfire.

they talked about almost everything and on those nights namjoon realized that he spent most of his teenage life with jimin and that he never had the opportunity to see other people and he was starting to see that what they do together as a couple had almost become routinely ever since beomgyu was born. 

namjoon would have impulsive decisions sometimes but jimin would take some time to think because his top priority is beomgyu, for namjoon, he missed doing something different or doing something out of the blue but he couldn't have that anymore 

he felt so selfish, with seokjin, namjoon feels free, he was trying out stuff with seokjin and those moments would make him forget that he has a family of his own and he felt like an incompetent father, pushing away his son further after the incident during the company outing and he didn't have the heart to tell jimin that it's because of him that beomgyu was like this. 

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"mama! mama! i want you to meet my teacher!" beomgyu was tugging at jimin's hand when he arrived at the school to pick him up "but why baby?" jimin asks 

it was great to see beomgyu so full of enthusiasm, he was worried that the pup would isolate himself in his classes but he always talked about his new teacher when they have dinner but jimin noticed that he only turned his attention to him and not to namjoon even though the alpha was trying to talk to him but he had talked it out with namjoon and asked what was going on and what happened but the alpha assured that it's normal

that it's just part of his growing up process and jimin sort of believed it since he was quite withdrawn while growing up and eventually started to break out of his shell when he met new people so maybe beomgyu's just going through that.

"mama, look i drew this!" he shows jimin a drawing of a cat which jimin takes in his hand and smile "this looks so good bub, best keep it so we can put it in the house." he ruffles his hair 

"go get your things." he says before the pup went running to the back of the room by their little lockers "and you must be jimin." jimin jumped at the voice and turned around to see an alpha "yes, i am and you are?" he asked the unnamed man 

"i'm wonho, i'm beomgyu's teacher actually." he replies "oh! he talks an awful lot about you, i see that he's become comfortable with you, he's pretty shy to be honest." jimin explains and wonho smiles "i noticed, i felt so bad since he almost cried on the first day of class when i asked the class to introduce themselves one by one and i just sort of gave him a hug although i was scared he wouldn't be used to my scent." 

wonho scratches the back of his neck as he looked down at his shoes "oh no, he didn't give you a hard time, didn't he?" jimin's cheeks turned red at the story "no, of course not, it's part of our job as teachers to make the students feel safe in the school environment so it wasn't a big deal, don't worry about it." wonho assures 

"he likes to talk about you, you know." wonho adds "he always tells me that he wants to be like you when he grows up, he told me that you used to be a dancer, he told me he's seen your videos online and he wants to be one too but he's too shy to tell you so he told me to tell you." jimin smiled brightly, no one has really brought up his past as a dancer and it was kind of an ego boost but he's more surprised that beomgyu had found his old dance videos and even watches them 

"he talks about you as well, especially about how cool you are." jimin spoke and it was wonho's turn to become red 

"ah, i'm not that cool." he mumbles softly and jimin shrugs "my son seems to think so and children don't lie." wonho covered his face that was bright red from what jimin said "mr. wonho are you okay?" beomgyu asks, they didn't even notice that the pup was close to them 

"he's okay baby, i just said something to him that made him go red and get shy." jimin holds out his hand for beomgyu "it was nice to meet you jimin." jimin nods "you too, i'll see you around, wonho-ssi." jimin waves at him and so did beomgyu 

"wasn't he so cool." beomgyu comments while jimin drives, they were on their way to home now and jimin has to prepare his little surprise gift to namjoon about the news that they were gonna have another little one coming their way "yes bubs, he told me that you wanted to be like me, do you want to be a dancer too?" beomgyu nods "can i?" 

"of course, you should follow what your heart desires." jimin says "have you been watching my old dancing videos?" beomgyu nods again "ah, how did you even find those?" jimin chuckles "i see you watching it." 

it made jimin ponder to those days but there were no regrets when he decided to stop, if he were to turn back time and choose between his career or his son, he would choose his son in a heartbeat.