Brimfire Mc

Chapter 21 Jax Prez

I was sitting and watching her with baby Liam and I seen the look in her face I seen the worry I seen the look. I couldn't help but want to know what she was thinking but I never thought she would reject a child none the less a baby. a child who has no idea what has happen. then she snapped and started to talk. I went to leave I couldn't watch this. this isn't the women I thought I had in my house. everything going on at the moment I thought she would be more caring knowing her life and how things happen with her and how things ended. I was about to exit when I heard his words to her. she snapped and I heard her reason I heard her thoughts I heard her feelings hell I could feel them. I could feel them radiating of her. she didn't say she wouldn't want the child she wants revenge and this child would hold her back. I know a thing or two about revenge and it can hold u back. she was confused and in pain. she was given more than she can chew and she thought if everything failed we would leave her and she would be stuck with a baby all by her self. I wouldnt except the child and she would have to do this all by her self. I wanted to comfort her tell her how silly she is but she just looked at me in complete emotion and asked for us to leave. this is the first time any of her emotions have shown. hell the whole time she has been here its been about us the club the traitors and people we want to bring down to think about it she hasn't had time to break down. I look to tank and cruise not knowing if I walk or walk to her and hold her. I am at a fucking loss. she lost a friend and gained a baby. cruise nods to me to follow her up the stairs he knows he cant help her through this. I don't evan know I can.

I walk up the stairs and I hear her crying I hear her sobs. I hear her talking to liam about being sorry and not good enough for anything. being a failure to everyone and everything. telling her self she will get revenge for liam and her self. I stop my self and rethink my approach she wasn't just thinking about her revenge she was also thinking about liams to his mother. taking the monsters life that took his mothers and took her life all those years ago. I wanted to crumble but I held my self as I walked in and saw her on the floor cradling a tinny human

"baby" I say sitting next her and bring her close to me

"jax" she says on a sob

" I cant" she says and I hold her tighter as she cries

" you can because you have me your dad and the club" I say to her she looks up to me so venerable

"but ill get you all killed for nothing for me for my revenge for his revenge" she says wiping her face

"for your freedom ill die evey day of the damn month baby" I say as she chuckles

"you can only die once" she smiles at me

"but for you ill give my best" I say kissing her temple

"and this" she ask about Liam

"this we will go one day at a time but giving him up wont help you wont make you any better. one day you will regret it. you need todo this. hell aroura let me revenge your life taken and his mumma but don't walk away from him" I say she stops breathing for a minute

" I never thought about being a mum" she says low I think to my self and know she wouldn't be lying she wouldn't ever want it in the environment she came from

" I want them blood or not" I say kissing her again coz I am a greedy man

"jax I know what I need to do. to get him to make this right"