I begged to die
the moment my head touched my pillow
I begged to be happy
the moment before I fell asleep
I begged to be someone
the moment I woke up
I begged to know what I wanted
I begged for instructions on what to do
I begged, and begged...
Now I'm tired of begging
and not getting answers
I'm exhausted like a lab rat
running in circles inside a maze:
stumbling, and running to reach what?
the "wonderful gift" of life: death
all this suffering and these prayers
for nothing
for a maybe
for a who knows
to live is to be tortured
is life even worth it?
