Love like ours - m.v

~8~

3rd of May 2021

Ivy POV:

Today was the Monday after the Portugal grand prix weekend. And to be honest,the race was nothing special. It was far too boring for me that I even fell asleep on the couch in the middle of it while Mabel wasn't even paying attention cause it really wasn't entertaining her as well

Max was supposed to fly back in tonight,meaning we will see eachother tomorrow during the day

Speaking of me, just when I thought I was getting better after a day from that last hangover,the illness had returned in about 5 days. At this point I was sure i caught some cold or flu and it got mixed up with that alcohol. Ever since then I haven't even dared to take a sip of any alcohol,since that was probably my worst drinking experience I've ever had in my whole life.

I couldn't help it but throw up from time to time every single day. I have been doing it for the past 3 days and even Mabel started to get worried for me

"Are you sure that you are all fine? I mean you have been basically throwing up for days and you are whiter than flour"- Mabel asked me while giving me a concerned look

"I think it should go away soon. It's definetly the flu or something. I don't wanna google my symptoms cause it would probably tell me I have cancer and 2 days left to live. You know how those things work?"- I looked at Mabel with a serious face,while she agreed with what i said

"I suppose you are right"

***

I was laying on the bed looking on the phone at my instagram,when something striked my brain

That truth or dare game

Yes,that very specific question I got about what would I name my future children

No,it can't be possible

My mind wasn't at ease now so I instantly went on google and searched up pregnancy symptoms

I definetly should've not done that cause i began to panic even more since 90% of the stuff it said,described well how I feel

Shit

I couldn't rest for even a slight second anymore. I put on my shoes and decided to leave and go to the pharmacy to see if this was all happening

"Ivy where are you going?"- Mabel gave me a questioning look as I was about to storm off the door

"Once I'm back you will understand. I don't want to talk about it now"- I said as i then shut the front door and basically ran to the pharmacy

***

I got inside the pharmacy and I realised that the pharmacist was a girl I knew. When i asked for the pregnancy test,she made a confused face,because she knew me and knew who was I.

That was very awkward and embarrassing let's say. I was probably going to be the next gossip topic on the lunch break period.

***

I walked back in the apartment while Mabel was waiting for me the whole time. She grabbed the bag out of my hands as she was too curious and almost got a heart attack the moment she saw the test packaging

"What in the actual fuck?"- She yelled and widened her eyes. She was probably just as confused as I am

"Don't ask me a single thing. I feel like dying right now. I don't even know what the future holds for me. Whatever results i get,that will be my life forever. I'm just really worried. How could these things happen to me? I'm so unlucky with all these stuff. I don't even know what to say"- I explained as i felt tears coming down my eyes. I couldn't hold them in anymore as i felt so much emotions inside of me because I definetly didn't need a child in my life right now.