Mine

Chapter 24

Alexander pov

I pull away breathlessly and pressed my forehead against his, why is he doing this, it hurts me so much I want him not his body I can wait for years if I have to

I have never been attached to anyone or had feelings but now what I feel for Elliot is more than that, I care about him so much, I can't see him hurt because it will hurt me more

Tonight in the underground we fought I knew it was him because last time mason told me who he is when we fought he stopped defending himself and fight back, I couldn't stop I had to hit him and I was angry at him so I took my anger out

Every time I try to go near him he pushes me away I don't know why

I look up he's staring at me with so much pain and he's not telling me I want to take the pain away but he won't let me so stubborn

" your not alone anymore " I whisper and walk towards bed taking my shirt off I sat down and lean back, Elliot looked at me confused that why I'm not doing anything

I'm not that low, I'm a leader and a coldhearted fucker but I'm not gonna do something to him to else the person I like and........ love

Love?

It's strange I have never thought I would find someone and love him or her I thought I'm not capable of loving someone what mom did to dad made me think that love is just a word nothing just a worthless word it's always lust

When I first saw Elliot I didn't even like him or maybe I did, I just didn't know it was all lust and obsession, we didn't spend time together we always fought but still it didn't make me annoyed I was amused and sometimes hurt by his words and that made annoyed because I was hurt

When I saw him running after Isa it made me angry my blood was boiling and I run after him he was shouting first suddenly everything stopped and I heard moaning I knew he was having sex

if Isa was a boy I would have killed her right away I was angry and jealous he wouldn't even let me touch him and he was having sex with Isa for the second time

" come here," I said he sighed he turned the light off and walked towards me I stare at his chest how his muscles flicked and his toned hardened ab under the dim light

I want him, I want to fuck him that he won't forget who he belongs to but now is not the right time his broken my Elliot is broken and he's having an inner battle with himself and I can Help him

When I saw him in the club he looked like he was high, his head was thrown back and his thighs were parted wide and a cigarette between his fingers I knew he wasn't high he was deep in his thoughts when I saw tears falling down from his beautiful eyes

I saw myself I saw the 18 years old Alexander that was high and took drugs when his dad died, I was like this, I was broken and angry I didn't cry I had just hate in me for my mother and instead of just being sad and cry that dad died I forced myself to hate my mother and people around me

I don't want him to be like me

he climbed on the bed, looking at him I pat my hand on my lap telling him lay down he didn't say anything, I know he's tired of everything

he laid his head on my lap and looked the ceiling slowly I reached my hand over his hair and run my fingers through his soft black hair

" you don't want me," he said not looking at me I chuckle how can he say something like that " I wanted you ever since I first saw you, " I said he shut his eyes and sighed I know he like my fingers running throw his hair

" then why I told you I can't give anything else just one night," he said paining me more every time he says this it's like pouring salt on my wounds

" you don't want this Elliot, you just want to do this to make me happy and I don't want you for your body I want you for you because I like you, I have never run to someone because they run to me you are the only one I want, " I said and continue

" I'm here for you, don't push me away, I don't know why your hurt or why your in pain but don't let the pain to eat you alive, tonight just for once don't hate me or push me away," I said

It's so strange to me to talk like this it's weird

Elliot didn't say anything just wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his face into my stomach a low whimper left him and I felt a drop of tear fell on my abdomen

" you shouldn't care about me or like me, I'm not someone you think I'm, I did some horrible things I'm a disgusting person," he said his voice cracked

I pull away and held his chin " no one is perfect I did so many horrible things that I'm not proud of but this fucking world is so cruel and sometimes you don't have to be a good guy and your not disgusting. Understand? " I said

he nodded wiping his eyes but he's lying to me I know like I did to others

" Who are you," he asked moving away and laid his head on the pillow, I froze, the question I was afraid he would ask, I know what he did but I'm scared what if he hates me more then he already does

" someone," I said he looked at me confused but understood what I mean by saying the word and didn't say anything and dropped his arm over his eyes

I push myself down and put my arm under his neck pulling him to me Elliot first Protested when he saw me staring him smiling he let out a sigh and moved closer to me chuckling I wrapped my other arm around his waist his soft warm breath fanned my chest making me shiver

" good night " he whispered " night," I said and put a small kiss on his head he let out a sigh making me shut my eyes

Finally, I have him in my arms but for how long

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