Elliot pov
" Are you okay? " Samuel asked parking the car sighing I nod and looked at him " help me," I said he nodded and climbed out the car and walked on other side and opened the door, I held his hand " be careful your shoulder and stomach didn't even heal yet," he said I roll my eyes " I'm fine," I said wincing when climb out and stood in front of him
" you should have stayed in the hospital until your stomach was healed," he said I ignored him and walked towards the apartment and walk in the elevator " did you meet mason after surgery," Samuel asked I shook my head and swallow the lump in my throat
" why," he asked as the door opened and he helped me to walk out " I...couldn't see him... because of me he was...there," I said he sighed " no he wasn't, he saved you, Elliot, you didn't even allow the doctors to say, mason that you gave him your kidney," he said I opened the door and turn around
"I will visit him after my wounds are healed, " I said he nodded smiling " take care bro, see you," he said I nod " I will bye, " I said and walk in the apartment
as I walked in Isa stood in front of me " hey are you okay " she asked no I'm not, I'm exhausted mentally and physically I didn't show her any emotion " I'm fine " I said and walk towards my bedroom
" you didn't come home all night," she said following me ignoring her I took my phone my wallet and keys out and put it on the nightstand
I opened my closet and took a shirt and sweatpants out and walk in the bathroom wincing every time I touched my shoulders and stomach I took my clothes off and looked at mirror my shoulder is bandaged and another one has a bullet scar one side my stomach is also bandaged
I gripped the sink as I saw the marks on my neck I touched them with my shaky hand as tears finally fell down my eyes he broke me it's hurts so much it's like being ripped apart from inside
Wiping my tears I put my clean clothes on and walk out the bathroom I saw Isa beside nightstand " what are you doing " I ask she quickly pull her hand away bite her lips nervously and walked towards me I frowned what was she doing
" nothing I was waiting for you," she said putting her head on my chest " where were you last night," she asked I shut my eyes " somewhere," I said pulling away slowly " you were with someone," she said " none of your fucking business Isa, get out I want to sleep I'm tired," I said rubbing my temple
" I'm sorry," she said softly I didn't look up " just go I want to sleep, " I said laying down and pulled the blanket over my chest I put my " not injured " over my eyes and let out a deep sigh
I'm so fucking tired, I feel so weak when Alex told me he doesn't love me I felt something in my heart something I never felt before was it heartbreak?
I have nothing left in my life it's meaningless for me I feel like I'm a dead body, I want this pain to go away I can't even sleep
Groaning I sat up and walk out my bedroom and apartment I walk towards my car and climb in I turn on the car and started driving
Parking my car I climb out
" hey dad, hey mom," I said running my hand over the stone and wiped the soil and the leaves " I miss you both so much, " I said
" I need you dad please come back for me, for your little man I miss you, I miss laughing with you, I miss your pranks it hurts dad I'm in pain I want you and mom here with me I want you to hug me tightly and tell me everything will be okay "
" it's hurt, my heart hurts dad my whole body is hurting I'm tired, tired of everything I'm so lonely this world is like a burden to me I feel like someone is strangling me and I'm just struggling I can't handle this is too much," I said as tears follow down from my eyes on the stone
" he doesn't love dad no one loves me the only one the loved me was you and mom, I didn't mean to hurt him or mason I only wanted revenge I couldn't sleep dad for years in peace I still remember when you and mom would come in my room to calm me down even when I was seventeen "
" he still haunts me, dad, I can't forget I tried but I can't but when I was with Alex that night he made me forget I was so happy that day finally I had somebody's to talk but he....he... left me I made love to him but he said it was nothing "
" did he ever had feelings for me? did he ever felt something for me or it was just lust? did my words mean nothing to him when I told him his mine, was it all lie when he was jealous and claimed me as his? why doesn't he love me back ? just why? wasn't I enough for him what did I do, do I have to change "
" I was ready dad I was ready to leave Isa and my son for him, I told him I will anything for him but he just broke me and gave me more pain maybe he was right I deserve it or do I, he doesn't want to see me anymore he hates me dad it hurts so much I don't want him to hate me I want him to love me," I said wiping my tears
" but he doesn't I'm not forcing him to love me I will forget him, yeah forget him I will not cry again I will bury all of this pain somewhere I will bury this love somewhere it doesn't belong to anyone just him and he doesn't want it I will forget him, Alexander knight doesn't exist anymore in my life "
" I won't be weak anymore, I'm a businessman and I will take care of my son and love him just like you loved me and the only one who I will love is my son no one else, " I said standing up
Elliot died tonight I'm not the same anymore
That was an emotional chapter, I kinda write this from my heart you know what I mean, I laid down and listened to sad songs and all my emotions come out then I started writing
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